The Voice Of....

Doctors

2012-01-25T07:32:00.000-08:00

Today I see two doctors.

One my primary care doc to check on the change we made in my blood pressure medication - and likely to get yelled at because my weight hasn't changed. But also to discuss with her (she's a runner) my plan with my coach - my side stitch - and how to succeed over the course of this year.

Then I'm off to my counselor. I have to say - I'm really getting a lot out of meeting with her. I really feel like we're getting to the root of some of my issues. Then the question is - what do we do with the raw emotion we find? Well - it is a process.

I'll report to you all tomorrow on how it goes.

One note: Amanda - my "coach" and I are DEFINITELY going to get some road miles in - but as we see it - the biggest hurdle was the stitch. Working the diaphragm without cramping it on the elliptical will strengthen it enough to allow for a harder push on the ground. Just a thought...but road work is coming. ;) Rest assured.

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3 of 7 (round 2)

2012-01-24T06:19:00.000-08:00

Someone's growing! Yes - Elizabeth's bed has been converted to a toddler bed - and last night - I'm pretty sure she rolled out of it onto the floor, and STAYED asleep while doing it. It was pretty funny - we went in to check on her and she's all snuggled in her blankets.....on the floor.

Anyhoo - I completed my 7 workout challenge (in faster time than anticipated due to multiple workouts during SNOWmageddon here in the PNW) - discussed it with my "coach" - who has increased the workouts to 45 minutes from 30. I'm three workouts into my seven. And working out has become more of a "habit" again.

The goal is to get me up to 60-90 per day prior to the Princess. The Princess goal we've defined is to survive and go further. By the time we get to Disneyland in September, I'll be under the pacing requirement - and finishing no problem. November - Wine and Dine - faster. And in January 2013, I'll return to WDW and conquer the course that started it all for me!

The only thing bugging me is my weight.

It's stayed kinda stagnant.

But that's okay. I just need to be extra careful about "extra" calories - even "workout" calories - and just be vigilant. The weight will come off. I just have to keep the course.

So - thanks "coach". You're helping me push myself in ways I'd forgotten how to.

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White Christmas

2012-01-18T09:53:00.001-08:00

Okay - well it's not Christmas anymore - but we are in the middle of a HUGE snowstorm here in the Pacific NW. They're predicting between 10-14 inches for some areas today - and that's on top of the 6 we got over the weekend!

Sorry I've been scarce - but it's not because I haven't been busy! Quite the opposite!

We're working on training our new assistant at the office - Elizabeth has come down with something involving a fever - and I've been using spare time to tackle my challenge!

And I'm proud to say that I'm already six workouts into my seven. :)

Plus - since today is a snow day - during nap time I'll probably get in my second workout of the day for my seventh. :)

Overall I'm doing great with exercise - food is still a struggle - but it's coming into line better. And I'm looking forward to seeing my doctor next week to discuss my side stitch. Also getting an accurate weigh-in on Wednesday of next week to see how my yearly progress is going so far!

How's YOUR January shaping up?

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Seven Days

2012-01-13T06:44:00.000-08:00

A good friend of mine (who for now will remain anonymous) has been a huge inspiration to me through my journeys. And he's always willing to be a source of information and a good "push".

I e-mailed him after the race - wanting his opinions on how to better prepare for Princess and how to move forward.

His response shocked, amused, and totally motivated me.

"When you've completed seven half hour elliptical workouts, we'll talk. Hope to talk to you next week."

Now - you might think that it would have upset me. Far from it. I laughed. And immediately replied.

"Okay - yesterday doesn't count! Talk to you next Friday!"

And today, I report 1 down. Six to go. I'm using my PreCor's pre-set "weight loss" program. It's a 28 minute program with a 5 minute cool down - for a 33 minute workout. The 28 minutes alternates from intensity of 1 to intensity of 8 every four minutes. It's a good strong workout.

Plus I get to watch Smallville on my iPad (great show) - I've only just started, but I'm only allowing myself to watch while I exercise. So there's that. And as I'm kinda hooked on the show now - and there are TEN seasons. Yeah. You can see that it'll be with me awhile!

This weekend, I plan on doing a more lengthy trip report highlighting BOTH of my recent trips - and I also plan on writing another article for AllEars - which I'll call "Toddling the World" - all about traveling with a toddler. Yeah - it's totally fun!

See you guys soon!

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The Return and Recap

2012-01-11T06:33:00.000-08:00

Well - I'm back from another great trip to the World. Although the hardest part was missing Elizabeth and Amber as much as I did.

Okay - so here's a recap of four days. It'd be a longer post, but we're training our new employee today! Yes - we are helping the economy by hiring an administrative assistant.

I'll elaborate on this trip and the December trip more over the next weeks.

But for now - here are the cliff's notes:

Kidani Village - furthest room from the lobby.
Sanaa - great to see Jeff, Amanda and Justin.
Hollywood Studios - made it into the American Idol show - great dinner with everyone at Mama's.
WDW Half Marathon - side stitch - 7 mile pick up - fell below pace.
Meeting up with Andy and Sharla and the kids - so much fun reminiscing.
Watching the Marathon - and cheering for TV members and WDWRadio team members.
Flying home - upgraded to first class.

I learned what I need to do to accomplish my goal in 7 weeks at the Princess - and I have the tools to do it.

1) I've already worked out today.
2) I'm on 2200 calories a day again - strict.
3) I see my counselor on Friday.
4) I see my doctor a week from today.
5) With a new employee, I'll be less office stressed.

Basically - everything I need to go back in February and do better! As I told Amanda and Jeff - it is my sincerest hope that after the Princess Half we are celebrating my success in crossing the finish line once again.

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Returning to my Home Away from Home

2012-01-04T07:25:00.000-08:00

I leave at 6am tomorrow for WDW and the 15th Annual WDW Half Marathon. My third such race.

I've talked about my fears and doubts - I've talked about my reasons and desires.

Now it's just time to put my feet on the road and see what I am capable of.

I'll be updating Facebook as usual - and will see you all here on Monday the 9th with a report - and a plan moving forward to the Princess race.

Which I might add - is being run on February 25 - the two year anniversary of my father's passing. How's that for symbolism?

For those of you who are going to be there - I'll see you all soon!

For those of you NOT going to be there - think good thoughts! (even you, mgreene - lol)

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January 1 - 358.6 - Happy New Year

2012-01-01T09:15:00.000-08:00

So - I start the new year down 2.4 pounds. Not a bad wake up present. :) I needed an accurate weigh-in today since my office is doing a monthly Biggest Loser competition - and I intend to win! I have a few new tools from Christmas, too. I got a Fitbit Ultra! And I have it matched to my "Lose it!" app on the phone - and it's a great pair of tools!

And since we have a new attitude, I figured I'd share a picture of Elizabeth's all new 'tude with you.

It was very sunny and she really wanted her own sunglasses - so we got them for her. She wouldn't put them down. Wanted them at all times that first day. But this is a rare moment where they were actually ON HER HEAD!

Okay - so I fly out Thursday to do my best to conquer the WDW Half Marathon! And see my teammates! And start 2012 on a high note! And as we know - even if the worst happens - not finishing is vastly superior to not starting.

As John Bingham would say: at least I have "the courage to start!"

And I'll hold onto that courage as we push further and beyond!

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Friends and Teammates

2011-12-30T05:32:00.000-08:00

You know - I may be having a rough time right now internally. I'm feeling quite insecure about my size, my lack of progress, and terrified about this race....

...but then I remember my friends. My family. Those who love me. And support me.

I know that as long as I keep my head on straight and keep moving forward - keep making the efforts - they'll never abandon me. They'll rejoice in my successes - and they'll share my disappointment in my failures. They'll be honest, harsh when needed, and never judgmental.

While we were in WDW a few weeks ago, we were lucky enough to see Princess Fiona for a few minutes! We flew in the day she was flying out - but she got to come say hi - hang with Elizabeth and Amber and I for about 10 minutes and even though it wasn't an "elongated" visit - it was enough to feel her support and love.

It's part of what makes this community so special to me.

Rae and Eric won't be joining us at the race - and we'll miss them terribly. It will be a loss keenly felt. But I know I'll see them in February at the Princess (I hope).

But when I think of sharing time with Jeff, Justin, Amanda, Andy and Sharla, and more - it reminds me that every step forward is just that - a step forward.

And then...my fears aren't so bad.

A quick side note: Sharla - I had no idea you and Andy were reading my blog! Welcome aboard! I can't wait to see you guys next week! But what time are we having dinner at Teppan Edo? :)

EPCOT AWAITS!

A Picture is Worth....

2011-12-29T10:15:00.000-08:00

...a thousand words. And some great motivation.

We got our Photopass CD from our recent trip. And I do really like this picture of us! It's a great family shot, and we had some fun Photopass shots that I can't wait to show you.

But we also did the new "enhanced" portrait session through Disney Event Photography. We planned an 8am photo shoot in World Showcase. And that's where the problems started.

1) It was COLD. Like 45-50 degrees cold. And windy. And Elizabeth was cranky.

2) Because of the cold and crankiness, nobody really smiled and opened up. We were fighting Elizabeth the whole way.

3) We got the online gallery to look at yesterday as well. We get the CD in a few weeks. And I can't stand most of the pictures. I feel like I ruined them. The pictures are very unflattering for me. I look TERRIBLE. I'm embarrassed of them.

See - in the picture above - you can tell I'm a big guy - but not HOW big. And I tend to carry my weight well, or so I thought.

Then I saw those pictures.

YIKES.

I worked out harder this morning. And tracked my calories. And feel driven.

And am fighting my own insecurities.

But - I will say this for the enhanced photo sessions - I like the concept. The pictures, such as they are, are quite well taken - good production value. We'll have to try it again - maybe when someone's a little less cranky. ;)

EPCOT AWAITS!

Holiday Truth Serum

2011-12-27T06:33:00.000-08:00

So today's going to ramble a bit. Sorry in advance. But first - isn't this a great picture of us?

One other note: most of you who've asked questions in comments, or made statements, etc - you're mentioned in here - so read the whole thing! :)

I haven't been around for a bit - so sorry. There will be a completed trip report - and there will be more discussion of all the things I've mentioned. Things have just been busy through the holidays - and at work. We've gotten busy enough that we're going to hire an administrative assistant. It's just crazy. Me an employer?

Now - there's a lot to discuss. And this is hard to write about and think about.

I'm starting to get nervous about next weekend's race. Not that I don't think I can go 13.1 miles. But I'm worried about the pace, as usual. See - in January 2011, I fell short. And I'm about 5-10 pounds heavier now than I was then. Which really upsets me.

This year hasn't quite gone as planned in a lot of ways. It's been both good and bad stuff, but regardless, I haven't been focusing on "me" as much as I needed to. The plans I've made haven't been 100% followed, and I'm still right where I started.

I do feel as if I've made strides forward - and given myself the tools I need to succeed. I just haven't succeeded yet. Because I'm not using all the tools together. I might use one or two at a time - but I haven't been putting the whole picture together yet.

Now - here's the unfortunate part.

I can't go BACKWARDS and fix it. I can't go back to March and work harder to get started - or back to June and run more - or even back to last week and eat less. I just can't. So mgreene - and I know you're reading - I know that I have said "I'm going to do...." - and haven't done. I get that part. But I can't do anything about it. And reminding me - makes me feel even more like I've failed. And what I need to do is recapture the courage and willpower to succeed.

And believe it or not, I really do want to succeed. I want to make changes in my life and body. And I know I'm going to. I know I can. And I know now is the time. So I've got the willpower - I just have to use it.

So what do I do? What's the grand plan?

Well - there isn't one yet. In fact, there won't be one.

Don't panic - I'm not giving up.

I'm just not making a "grand plan". I'm going to take this challenge one step at a time. I tell my clients that all the time. "I'm a methodical attorney. I take your case one step at a time - let's not get ahead of ourselves."

So time to put THAT plan into action.

I have the following tools: a reduced calorie plan from my dietician (2200/day); pre-prepared healthy food from "Dinners Ready" and meal plans for breakfast and lunch; an elliptical machine; a treadmill; good shoes; a good therapist; a loving supporting family; a loving supporting team.

And let me expand on the team aspect. Jeff W, Amanda, Rae, Justin, and all of you - you've stuck with me through all this - and you keep staying. You believe that if I want it bad enough I can make changes. And you care enough to support me through the ups and downs. And I just wanted to say thank you. You really don't know what you all mean to me.

These things together should allow me to push forward and make some progress.

Here's the first goal: five pounds. After that - we'll do another five. But the first five is the goal.

Here's the second goal: use the elliptical four times a week for the next two weeks. It's a place to start. A way to integrate exercise into my daily routine. And I've already done one for this week. Just now.

Now - let's talk about races. I'm already registered for two - January and about six weeks later in February. And about eight weeks after that, we board the Disney Fantasy. That's four months. That's enough time for lots of small goals.

Race one: January 2012. I am aiming to finish this thing. Rae - I adore you and your heart. And I'm going to push every mile for you. And for Jeff. And Justin. And Amanda. And Fee. And everyone who's ever supported me. I'm going to give it everything I have. And if something goes wrong - it's a gauge for a starting point - and I'll use it as such.

Race two: February 2012. I aim to do better than I did in January. Whether that's further, or faster, or both.

Cruise time: By the time the cruise arrives, I want to have to buy a smaller bathing suit.

I think these goals are small, achievable, and allow for room to expand as I hit them.

And you'll notice - those of you who've known me - that I didn't wait for a "Monday" or the "first of the year" or anything - I just said - enough. Today it's time to turn it around.

So strap in. Here we go.

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Trip Report - Part I - and Update

2011-12-16T20:09:00.000-08:00

We are just about three weeks from race day.

I'm hoping on Monday to post a good number from this week - and I'll be hitting the elliptical hard tomorrow and Sunday - and staying away from the sweets at our holiday party on Sunday. :)

As for the comments from Tuesday - they were ALL great! You guys are an awesome support group!! And Amanda has it right on her blog - the JOURNEY - is huge. So here's a great way for me to gauge my success! January and February - SAME EXACT COURSE. So I should improve, right? :)

Okay - back to the trip. This picture was taken on the morning of Day 2. Day 1 was travel day.

Day 1 was also when we had to call emergency services.

Elizabeth took a header into a chair leg. And had a lump growing out of her forehead the size of a small orange. We FREAKED OUT. But if you call emergency services from your room - a manager and security come wait while RCDD 911 comes.

They were with us within 5 minutes. They evaluated Elizabeth (no cost) - and gave us their honest opinion - which was no x-ray was necessary.

They really did a lot to counter our panic and put us at ease. Thankfully!

On that first day, we woke up LATE - we were exhausted from the night before's drama. So we headed to the MK. Got our APs renewed, and saw Princess Fiona at lunch!

We just spent the day kinda ambling around the parks and doing so in a leisurely fashion. It was a very relaxing trip. No "go go going". Which was nice for a change.

Okay - more soon!

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Back in the Saddle

2011-12-13T06:10:00.000-08:00

Well - we are officially back!

We had a GREAT time at WDW! I can't wait to tell you all about it - I'll be doing a detailed trip report AND a new article for all ears.net. But let me tease you with some details:

You'll soon hear about:

Paramedics
New Dining
New Attractions
Crazy Taxis
Holiday Parties
Scottish Invasions

And more!

As always, I return with a mixed blessing of news. Some good - some bad.

Let's start with some bad news. I'm up in terms of weight. Which surprises me a bit. I managed to not eat a single beef item at WDW. I did chicken, fish, sandwiches, etc. And of course, there was a lot of walking and swimming. I think I did about as well as you can! But with 11 days - perhaps it added up. I'm just not sure. And I'm kind of ashamed of where I am weight-wise. But all I can do is keep pushing forward.

But here's the good news. I had zero leg and calf and shin and foot problems. I've NEVER been to WDW and not gotten a blister. My New Balance shoes really worked well and I'm very happy with them headed towards race day.

As for the "pushing forward" part - we know that there's a race I mean to finish in 3ish weeks. But moving forward from that - I plan on training as hard as I can through 2012 - getting faster through each race (improving on every time) - and finally pushing forward and losing that 100 pounds I've been talking about. I'm resetting my Club 8 counter on the blog to ZERO as of today.

We'll be strictly enforcing the 2200 calorie a day diet. We'll be using the elliptical, treadmill, and/or going outside for a distance walk 5 times a week minimum. And we WILL see progress. It might take the whole year to reach the goals - or we might hit them in 6 or 8 months. Who knows?

But it's time to put my behind in the past. Or put the past behind me. Or something. :)

Hakuna Matata.

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Magic Bound!

2011-11-28T04:43:00.001-08:00

And we're off to the Magic Kingdom!!

I'll try to update here if I can - but follow me on Facebook for pictures and updates!

See you guys in TWO WEEKS! :)

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Vacations and Exercise

2011-11-21T06:44:00.001-08:00

This picture was taken in January of 2011 just before the Half Marathon. I'm about the same size today as I was then.

And it occurred to me that I can really do damage to my progress on this upcoming Disney Trip if I'm not careful.

But it also occurred to me that I have access to the workout room at the Contemporary. And I can just get up early, as I usually do, and hit the elliptical. Might even go for a jog or two! If I can keep up with the exercise things will go better. I might even LOSE weight while I'm there - and how awesome would it be to push forward towards January with that mindset?

So that's what I'm going to do! Use the gym at the Contemporary!

Last night we watched "Tinkerbell" for the first time. Actually a really fun movie - and Elizabeth loved it. Even tried to say "Tin...er...ell" before bed when I pointed at her autographed picture from Margaret Kerry.

You know? Despite my struggles....I'm a lucky guy.

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51 and 11

2011-11-17T06:22:00.001-08:00

This picture was taken over a year ago at our Wine and Dine 2010 trip.

I am SO excited to see how much Elizabeth has grown in comparison to the parks.

Will she still freak out at characters and fireworks?

Who knows?!?

Will she appreciate more rides?

Who knows?!?!

Just can't wait.

Which brings me to today's title:

51 days until I leave for the Half Marathon in January.

11 days until we leave for our family trip after Thanksgiving.

I had originally planned a daily countdown - but things have been kinda hectic with work and what not, so it's become a little less frequent - but I will do my best to keep posting as we near the holidays.

How am I doing?

Just finished an elliptical workout - and haven't touched the scale since my last post. Won't be until Wednesday before Thanksgiving. Going to see what progress I've been able to make.

I've struggled a bit as we've gotten crazy - but I think on the whole am making better choices where I need to. (Don't mistake me - I've had bumps). But I need to buckle down even more. I am not going to get swept in January. It's been hard lately - emotionally too. Sometimes if you have a bad day, it spirals into two. And I don't have that many days left to get my body ready to do what it needs to in January.

And I'll be honest - I'm scared. Of disappointing myself and the friends and family who believe in me. But that fear is helping drive me forward, I think. And I'll do what I always do - my very best. I'll give the training and the race 150% of what I have in me. I just worry that maybe it's not enough again. That bus sucked. So I just try to push HARDER.

As I start to get into a groove (and admittedly - it's taken longer than I wanted it to - and I still struggle at times) - I want to honestly and personally thank all of you who have stuck with me. And encouraged me. And even held me accountable (even when I don't like your methods - not talking about anyone in particular here - *cough cough mgreene cough cough* - hehehe).

You guys are pretty dang awesome. And as I reclaim what's rightfully mine (my health) - I'm proud to share the journey - the ups AND downs - with you all.

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Kinect-ing

2011-11-10T07:01:00.001-08:00

It's interesting. I'll get to the interesting part after I tell you about our newest fun thing in the house.

Based SOLELY on a demo of Kinectimals and the upcoming Disneyland Adventures, we bought an XBox and Kinect combo. My counsellor said I could buy one ONLY if we got an "active" game for it - so we got several. And it's a fun way to get some sweat out of you! Although watching me bust a move to "Baby got Back" playing Dance Central is also a great way to laugh your can off!

That being said - this morning I had an interesting experience.

I woke up early - ready to hit the elliptical. And then decided to check in on my weight. I've been working out - eating better (although not always sticking to my 2200 per day) - and generally FEEL like I'm making progress on my health.

And the weight....hadn't moved.

And so I sat there in the bed, watching Sesame Street with Elizabeth - feeling bad about that. And slowly losing the will to exercise. I mean - what's the point right?

But then I realized how BACKWARDS that is.

The only way I'm going to lose this weight is by CONTINUING to exercise and eat properly. Building those habits. One day at a time. So I got off my butt, went downstairs, and did my elliptical workout. They have a "weight loss" program that I use during the week - it's a set 28 minute program with a 5 minute cool down. And it DEFINITELY gets the "shirt soaking" done.

I've been revisiting my goals for 2012 these last weeks in light of my struggles. And I think this is a more realistic goal:

1) Finish January 2012 - no sweeping.

2) Complete all four races that I set out to do - January, Princess (both of which I'm registered for) - Disneyland, and Wine and Dine

3) Get progressively FASTER with each one.

4) Run/jog at least 30-50% of the Wine and Dine.

If I can accomplish them - the weight will HAVE to come in line along the way, right?

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Cold Season

2011-11-04T06:42:00.000-07:00

Yes - it's cold season.

And yes - I got a doozey.

But I'm still pushing through it - just did an elliptical workout and getting ready for my day.

Saw the dietician this week - we didn't see as much progress as we wanted - so we're tweaking our plan. Reducing daily caloric intake to 2200 - and pushing the elliptical to 5x week or more. We're hoping to see a loss of 15-20 pounds in 4-6 weeks.

And much like Byron - I have a Disney Trip to look forward to where I can condition my feet. 10 days in December. We've carefully chosen our dining options to give me healthier plates to eat while dining - and having the condo kitchen is REALLY nice while we're there.

In any event - time to go get ready for the day.

See you guys next week!

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Rapunzel

2011-10-31T20:13:00.000-07:00

I had to bring you this photo today - what a BIG girl we have! Holy cow! She's growing so dang fast.

I also wanted to publicly thank my good friend Jeff W for a motivational phone call today - kinda an extra kick in the butt. I've been struggling the last few weeks due to baby issues, birthday issues, and sleep issues. But now that Precor is here (and I'm using it - so far 4 workouts since it's been put in last wednesday) - I'm soaking my shirts and all will be well. :)

But seriously - thanks Jeff.

And also - thanks to Amanda and Justin for being my e-mail buddies.

And the rest of the team for sticking with me!

Great things are coming! Just give me time. ;)

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Enter Precor

2011-10-27T06:40:00.000-07:00

I had almost forgotten what a good hard elliptical workout feels like. But holy cats - today was a great one.

So this is our new Precor Elliptical. It's right next to our treadmill - and given the choice - the elliptical pushes me harder, and allows me to push harder right now. So this morning I did a 30 minute elliptical workout.

WOW.

I'm SOAKED in sweat. It feels GREAT - and a little soggy. ;)

I'm off to hit the shower - but it now feels like I really have all the TOOLS I need to make the successes I'm focusing on reality.

This feels GOOD.

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A Check In

2011-10-25T20:41:00.000-07:00

I thought I'd give you all some pictures of Elizabeth to make you smile. She always makes me smile.

These were taken at her 18 month photo session six months ago. She's changed even since THEN.

As for me - things here are going well.

Sunday I did a 6 mile walk - and felt good about it. The elliptical is getting installed tomorrow, and as we're approaching the 60 day countdown, I'm going to post DAILY from 60 days down to 1. I'll be updating you on my exercise, weight, food intake, and plan overall.

This elliptical is really going to help me kick into high gear - and I'll likely be using IT more than the treadmill as the weather changes.

That being said - this last week has been a struggle with food - between birthday parties - and hectic schedules - and sleepless nights - I've struggled.

But I have a plan - I'm working within it - Amber is working with me - and I see the nutritionist again next week on Wednesday. I'm hoping for a good progress report.

Until then...

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Finding My Legs

2011-10-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

This morning started out well - with another 30 minute workout. However - due to rain, and the shin problems I've been having, I did it indoors on the treadmill. And slowed it down a bit.

No pain. And still a good workout.

I think the shins might be a combination of weight and speed. So if I slow, and can go longer, and drop more weight - I'll be able to speed up.

Compounding that plan is our new purchase of a PreCor Home Elliptical machine. It'll be delivered and set up on Wednesday. So once it's in, when I'm not walking/jogging - I'm ellipticalling. I plan on adding a 30 - 45 minute workout on it daily (at a minimum when I'm not walking/jogging - but an extra workout on those days would be great too).

Today we start off with something fun, too! We're taking Elizabeth in for her 2 year photo session! So we'll have some new photos from the wonderful ladies at Artis Photography soon!

Today I feel quite hopeful. A new sunrise.

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Happy Day

2011-10-18T06:51:00.001-07:00

Two years ago today, we were basking in the happiness of having been presented with this new little person.

Two years ago today, we were exhausted, but delighted to welcome her to our world.

Two years ago today, we were terribly sleep deprived, and didn't care one iota.

Two years ago today, we were able to redefine love.

Happy Birthday Elizabeth Noelle!

Daddy adores you!

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356 - A New Hope

2011-10-17T06:20:00.001-07:00

Okay - first things first - I haven't been around in like a week and a half.

Elizabeth's had one whopper of a sick time this last bit here. Started with respiratory and ended with an ear infection. We had fevers, coughing, crankiness, and more.

It made for a rough patch for updating.

Good news: I kept up with exercise - mostly. I had some trouble with my shin yesterday on my long run - but I have some good ideas to work with.

Bad news: I was good with the dietician's plan - but not perfect. About 75% I'd say. I'm up a bit from when I last weighed in at home, but down from my last weigh in with the dietician. So I'm hovering in the middle.

So here's where we go from here.

Everyone's healthy now. So no excuses.

We've planned out the week with a good diet plan. And I've got my exercise plan as well. We're going to really buckle down and make progress the next 16 days the focus (I see the dietician again November 5). We're going to get BELOW 350 by then. If not further.

And to help (since the weather is changing) - we're considering purchasing a new elliptical for the house - but not a cheap one - a good quality one from a reputable company. If that happens - I'll be adding elliptical training on my "off" running days. And oh my how the weight will drop.

So despite having a few setbacks - I feel hopeful this week.

And I'm thankful that I have my teammates and friends supporting me!

EPCOT AWAITS!

The Past Can Hurt

2011-10-05T20:15:00.000-07:00

Last night I watched the new Diamond Edition BluRay of the Lion King. It was the first time I've watched what is easily my favorite movie in over 18 months. I couldn't bring myself to watch it since my father passed.

And at the appropriate time in the movie - I broke down. Completely. Sobbed. My heart just....hurt. Ached. But when it passed - I felt a little better.

And then I realized that seeing this counselor is just what I think I really needed. I think I've been stalled because of some blocks inside. And it's time to start knocking them down.

I saw my dietician today. We reviewed my food logging and noted that I eat out. A lot. I was averaging between 3000-3500 calories a day. We're cutting that to no more than 2500 a day. And she's given me a food plan - including a detailed menu. I weigh in again when I see her in 4 weeks. And there WILL be progress by then. She's said "It's time for us to get aggressive and kick some butt."

I can't even begin to say how much I agree. And how suddenly - excited I am.

And Byron - if you're still with me - my friend - feel no shame in being where you are. But as a wise old baboon once told me - you can either run from it....or....learn from it.

And "learn from it" sounds like the better choice. So I'm with you. All of you.

If you're with me.

EPCOT AWAITS!

Galloway Day 13 - 30m - Confusion

2011-09-28T06:20:00.000-07:00

Here's what I don't get.

On Sunday I did just shy of 5 miles. A decent pace - not great - 18m - but did it. And felt tired - but okay.

Then today I used my new Gymboss interval timer to do the run/walk interval for 30 minutes - and my shins were KILLING ME.

How can I go 5 miles okay and not 30 minutes okay?

Ugh. It's frustrating. It makes me wonder about my abilities to keep pace - and that leads me to doubts - and fear - and that is the path to the dark side.

I'm hopeful for my meeting with the dietician next week. I'm doing what she asked - and tracking what I eat - and seeing patterns - seeing why I seem to hover - I go up a few - down a few. And I'm making a conscious effort to break the patterns. But I want to know what her plan for me is.

I have roughly 90 days until the race. That's LOTS of time to train and lose weight to get faster.

But I doubt myself at times.

Thank goodness YOU all are here to remind me to believe in myself.

EPCOT AWAITS!

Galloway Day 11 - 30m interrupted

2011-09-23T05:47:00.000-07:00

Well I haven't been updating as much as I've wanted lately - but that's getting better. I'm averaging 3/week - as opposed to 1. Let's see if we can boost it. This is a useful forum for me to communicate with myself - as well as give you a peek inside my mind.

So let's update.

Diet/Food - things here are going according to plan. I'm logging everything I'm eating, and noticing some trends and patterns. I'm sure this is what the dietician wanted me to do - and I look forward to seeing her again on October 5 to review them, and also to weigh in and see if the exercise and "counting" is putting me on the right track.

Exercise - a few bumps - but doing good. Sticking to the Galloway plan - 2 days of 30m walk/run with 1 long run each week. However - here are the bumps. My interval timer - stopped working. After two uses. I called, and they're sending another. Ugh. And this morning's 30 minutes was interrupted about halfway in by a very urgent call to the restroom. So I'm going to REDO today's 30m tomorrow in preparation for 5 miles on Sunday.

General wellbeing - I think I'm doing alright. My emotions are a little closer to the surface than normal - which is one of the things I talked about with my counselor yesterday. Oh right - I had a counseling appointment yesterday. First one. I really like this counselor. She seemed very friendly, a good listener, and like someone who wants to help me figure out what I'm going through - help me through it - and see me a better, healthier person on the other side. So hey - if you're reading this doc - THANKS - I felt good just coming to meet you.

Other stuff - things here are generally going in a normal direction. Elizabeth is nearly TWO. When did THAT happen? Oh and a quick shout-out to the "Magic" to my "Mayhem" - Bryan Ripper - now DADDY of a beautiful little boy. Go over to Facebook and say hi.

And I'm really excited about tonight. I get to perform MAGIC at my mom's retirement home. My first actual PAID magic gig. :) How cool is that?

And I'll leave you with a video of one of the tricks I'll be performing tonight - the classic of magic - the Cups and Balls - as interpreted by Lance Burton.

EPCOT AWAITS!

Galloway Day 10 - 30m

2011-09-20T06:52:00.000-07:00

So I'm back from Vegas with a QUICK update (I have to get to court).

I haven't done my 30m today yet - that'll be later - I only have one court date, and then I'm home - so I'll do it during baby nap time. :)

Vegas went well - did good with food and exercise. So I feel good about that.

A good friend of mine opined that the training will help with the races, but that I should "follow the dietician's instructions to the letter" - to ensure we finally figure out how to get this weight off. I agree totally. And my first homework assignment is to track EVERYTHING I eat for the next two weeks. And I'm using the app above to do it.

It gives me an interesting view of things from above. Calories, fat, salt, etc. And then we'll review it - create a plan - and work together going forward.

I'm also considering some additional counseling. I feel like there's some unresolved stuff (emotional) surrounding everything I've been through in the last 24 months (loss of job, creating a business, moving family to us, having a baby, dad passing, grandmother passing, etc) that I need to process. And if that's a component of why I'm struggling - it's time to deal with it.

In other words - it seems like I have a good plan going forward. And I'll have experts supporting me along the way!

EPCOT AWAITS!

Vegas Bound

2011-09-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

I'm off to a CLE in Vegas. I know - poor me. :)

I have my training gear, and I've already determined that Aria to the Mirage and back is my 2 miler for Galloway this weekend. :)

I had my first appointment with the dietician yesterday - and we talked a lot about a lot of things. She wants me to focus on some of my problem areas, and really track what I'm consuming over the next three weeks - and then at my next appointment we're going to make a six month food plan to compliment my training - and also really jumpstart some more weight loss.

I feel positive about the experience - although parts of it were hard. Admitting to myself some of my behaviors and triggers. It was like therapy at times.

But enough of that.

I'm goin' to VEGAS baby! :)

EPCOT AWAITS!

Galloway Day 6 - 4.06 miles - 1:12

2011-09-11T08:58:00.000-07:00

Okay - a few updates.

1) Completed my 4 miler today - slow and steady. My interval timer is helping with my 30 minute workouts - and the long runs will catch up. This week's schedule: T - 30; Th - 30; Sa - 2miles.

2) Regarding the "weight loss surgery" conversation. First of all - I agree with all of you - I don't want to have it. Secondly - all I said was that we're going to evaluate my progress at my birthday and if I'm still struggling after devoting all my energy to weight loss - then we'll consider all other options. Hadn't decided on one yet. And hopefully won't have to. :)

But I LOVE ALL OF YOU for the comments! (Yes, even you mgreene - although you missed the point of the "line in the sand" analogy by simply asking why the "before" hadn't happened - some of it did - some of it is still - and some of it didn't. Regardless - I'm moving forward)

At my doctor's suggestion I have an appointment with a dietician on Tuesday to help me with my progress and hopefully avoid that "other" conversation. I really like and trust my doctor. And she's not pushing any one course, just wants me to succeed.

That all being said.

Ten years ago we as a country were damaged.

And today we remember it. And honor the fallen. And pledge to do good with our lives.

Let's all do one good thing for someone else today.

THAT is what America is.

EPCOT AWAITS!

A Line in the Sand

2011-09-08T06:40:00.001-07:00

Okay - first a few updates - then today's topic.

1) Salish Lodge was beautiful - we had a very nice night. And had a really good time.

2) I finally (yesterday) got my GymBoss Interval Buzzing Timer Wrist thingy. And I tried it out this morning at a 10/50 Galloway interval. It was a shorter run - but my pace quickened to 16:30 - which is VERY nice. Tomorrow I'll be doing my Galloway 30minutes - and Saturday or Sunday - 4 miles. I'm still on track with the plan - but this week my days are a little messed up. Busy week.

3) Weight. I'm down a little more - as you can see in the sidebar. I'm at 352. Down 9. But not enough for my tastes.

Which brings me to today's post.

I saw my doctor yesterday for my yearly physical and to check my BP. My BP is good (but regulated by medicine). My health overall is good. I'm strong and active. But the weight isn't coming off.

And she asked me point blank. "So - what are we doing about this weight thing? I see you struggling, and I want you to see your grandchildren get married." It wasn't a new statement, but I thought for a moment before answering. I know she thinks I should consider weight loss surgery. But I'm not there yet.

And then I remembered something from about 13 years ago.

Originally I wanted to be a doctor. Was even accepted into a medical program. Accelerated too. But halfway through it I was really struggling. I wasn't "getting" some of the more advanced sciences. And I had a long talk with my Dad who asked me if this was right for me. Was I doing the right thing.

And I thought to myself - well - I'm living at the dorms - and enjoying a lot of my time. Maybe that's not the ticket. Maybe I'm not really "TRYING" - maybe I'm goofing off too much.

"Well Dad, if I really try - if I apply myself 100% and it's still not for me - then I can accept it. But until I've really applied every ounce I have - I won't give up."

So I moved home for a semester. Studied with my dad every single night. And still wasn't making the grades I needed. I knew I couldn't give it any more. So I looked for other options. And now I'm a very successful trial lawyer.

What the heck does this have to do with weight?

Well - I came to the realization at the doctor's office that I'm training - and watching what I eat. But I haven't really "DIETED" or "pushed myself" on the weight loss front. I haven't applied every ounce I have to it. And until I do - I won't give up.

So here's what we did. We drew two lines in the sand together - my doctor and me.

First line is today. It's right here. Now. There's everything behind it - and there's NOW. And as of now - we are applying 150% to weight loss and health. Not just training and "watching what I eat" - but actually dieting. Consuming less. Consuming healthier food. Not giving in to temptations. And LOSING weight. I'll weigh in every two weeks. And we'll see the change. I will not give up.

The second line in the sand is April 17, 2012. My 34th birthday.

If we get there, and I can honestly say that I've dedicated my resources to losing weight and getting healthier - we will gauge my success. If I'm making significant progress - we'll keep going.

But if I've really really tried everything. And the weight isn't coming off fast enough for my health - we'll have a talk about other options and what's available to me.

I do NOT want to have that talk.

So I guess my only other option is to apply myself. HARD. I've done a lot in my life. Accomplished many many things.

And this - this is the next one.

EPCOT AWAITS!

Galloway Day 3 - 2.96 miles - 56 minutes

2011-09-04T07:40:00.000-07:00

Alllllright. I feel great after today's workout. Now - I know it was slow - but that's not the point. It was 3 miles! Longer than I've done in a long while.

And as a reward? A night at the BEAUTIFUL Salish Lodge (seen above) tonight. Very excited about it.

Congratulations to all my teammates who did the Disneyland Half today! You guys ROCK! See you all soon (January is right around the corner).

EPCOT AWAITS!

Galloway Day 2 - 1.46m - 30 minutes

2011-09-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

WARNING: Today's post may ramble - and might be emotional.

First some business - today I did 1.46 in 30 minutes. Slower than Tuesday - but I had other things on my mind as you'll soon see.

Thank you to all the commenters and posters on Tuesday - contrary to popular belief - I was still here too - just not posting a lot. As we get closer to Marathon Weekend - that'll change. Amanda - yes - I'll be there with you - celebrating!

Now.

Today is September 1.

And today is my dad's birthday. Or would have been. Or is. I honestly don't know which is proper. Or if it matters.

The fact is - he would have been 65 years old today.

And that got me thinking - he's been gone a year and a half now. He was only 63 years old when he died. It was too young. Too soon. Too early. And I look at my daughter and my heart breaks that he isn't here with her to see her grow.

I know that he sees her. I know he's with us.

But it's different. I mean - I can still talk to him - and do - but it's very one sided.

I choose on his birthday to remember him in his prime. In his 30s and 40s. Before the bypass. Before diabetes. Before the COPD.

He could make me smile and laugh with a smile, a joke, or just by being there.

He imparted to me the value of tradition - love - life.

And of course - he shared with me some of the things I'd come to love as dearly as my own self through the years.

And whether he enjoyed it or not - he never let me think he was doing anything but having a great time.

This was a man who celebrated every second of his life.

And although I could talk about why it was too soon. And how weight affected him. And how I don't want to share his fate. And how I'm nowhere near half done with life at 33.....

Instead, for today at least, I choose to celebrate him. I choose to remember him.

And as I do every single day since February 25, 2010, I choose to miss him.

EPCOT AWAITS.

Galloway Day 1 - 30 m - 1.65 miles

2011-08-30T07:55:00.000-07:00

*dusting off keyboard* Wow it got quiet in here....time to turn the volume up!

Well folks - this is now officially the time where the rubber meets the road.

The last few weeks of "reboot" time have been leading up to today. Conditioning me. Getting me ready.

And now I'm pushing forward to the next level.

I'm still working with my super secret coach (thanks coach!) on food and mileage and distance challenges - but I'm also transitioning into the Galloway training plan - 18 weeks to a half-marathon. And today I did my first 30 minute workout at 1.65m. I'm going to be buying one of those vibrating interval timers for the walk/run intervals this week. Official weigh-in on Monday (Labor Day) - but sufficed to say, I've been holding steady the last two weeks. I expect that to drop significantly.

I'm feeling really good about this.

The last two weeks have been less than ideal - but not "bad" - just really busy and so training took a backseat. That's no longer okay. I have race #1 coming up in only 18 weeks. And race #2 a few short weeks after that. And then a long training break until #s3 and 4. Because I'm GETTING all four medals this year - actually FIVE (Coast-to-Coast).

And speaking of - who doesn't LOVE the 15th anniversary Donald Medal?

Can't WAIT to have it placed over me in EPCOT at the FINISH line.

So - where IS everyone? Are you all still out there?

Do we need a Team Voice Mousekateer Roll Call?!?! Alright my friends - SIGN IN!

EPCOT AWAITS!

353 - Getting Back Into the Groove

2011-08-15T06:11:00.002-07:00

Alrighty - first - please enjoy this picture of Elizabeth enjoying her first pretzel in Disneyland (this was taken in March/April-ish).

Now that that's out of the way - I'm down around 4 pounds in two weeks (3.8) - and feeling really good about that.

Stomach woes are pretty much behind us. Just some lingering GI distress.

I've gotten out last week a few times for a short jaunt, and tomorrow I will kick up my "short" jaunt to 1.5 miles as my regular loop - until August 30, when my short loop will change to follow Galloway's training program for the 1/2 Marathon.

I'm really excited about the fact that I now have TWO pairs of shoes - yes - the Asics came in - and both seem to help with the shin pain. Not sure which pair I prefer yet, but I'm just happy to have them.

How're YOU all doing, my friends? How's your training going? How's your LIFE going?

And who's looking forward to January already???

EPCOT AWAITS!

An Update

2011-08-09T12:43:00.000-07:00

Okay - so I promised over a week ago a new update.

I had hoped to report to you on my workout regime, my weight loss, and our wonderful housewarming party.

Unfortunately on Saturday Amber and I came down with a NASTY stomach bug - maybe even food poisoning. Not sure which. But until this morning - I've been either in bed, on the couch, or in the bathroom.

Now - that being said - I'm feeling somewhat better today - and am back at work.

And prepping a trial for tomorrow. Which I can't wait for!

There is nothing more uplifting than a trial for me!! :)

Hopefully to get back on the road tomorrow or Thursday - with a post week wrap up. :)

Miss you guys!

EPCOT AWAITS!

356.8

2011-08-01T07:42:00.000-07:00

This is another shot from Elizabeth's charity photo shoot - I just hadn't gotten around to posting it yet.

Okay - so I'm up 5 pounds in three weeks. And I could explain and excuse - but I won't. It doesn't matter. That's where I am - so that's where I am.

On the GOOD side - the new NB shoes are working out it seems - and I did a nice 1.5 mile jaunt with them today. I'll be staying with that distance this week - and trying to get faster and faster on it. Also - I'll be updating weight next MONDAY - then every two weeks - but I really want to get rid of that number, so I want something more positive to look at.

I'm registered for Princess - and I have my head screwed on straight. Now it's just a matter of hard work. :)

EPCOT AWAITS!

I'm a Princess

2011-07-31T14:20:00.001-07:00

Or rather - I'm going to be.

In other words....

I'm registered.

EPCOT AWAITS

Shoe Update

2011-07-24T06:02:00.000-07:00

As I prepare for a long weekend (Wednesday through Saturday) in Boston for a DUI conference, I'm happy I have new shoes.

I tried them out this morning for a .75 loop around my neighborhood.

Not bad. The pain wasn't gone - but it was significantly lessened. Although having that stabilicore in the shoes felt REALLY weird. It's going to take some getting used to - especially since I seemed to be overcompensating with my ankle. But it was a good feeling getting back out there.

I'm going to stick to the .75-1.0 mile distance this week - in the hopes of hitting 1.5 this weekend on Sunday when I return from Boston - and updating you all on Monday. :)

EPCOT AWAITS!

Shoe Update

2011-07-23T13:39:00.000-07:00

Well - the Asics haven't arrived yet - why? Because Asics is having a 3-4 week DELAY on shipping. They're still on order.

But I can't just sit here on my butt waiting.

So I headed back out to a shoe store - this time New Balance.

Got fitted - and have a new pair of NB Stability shoes to try out first thing tomorrow for a nice jaunt.

We'll see how they feel overall - and see how they feel when I push to jogging.

Next week I'll be in Boston at the end of the week for a conference - so what I plan on doing is updating tomorrow about the shoes - and when I return with an overall "catchup" post. :)

EPCOT AWAITS!

Shoe Report

2011-07-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

Late last week, on doctor's orders, I went to Fleet Feet and got remeasured for shoes.

As it turns out - the shin pain I've been having is likely a consequence of my gait changing as I jog. I'm over pronating on the left side. So what we did was order a shoe for me with more stability in it - I tried them at the store, but we needed a smidge wider.

So I give you - the Asics 2160!

I'm excited about these shoes - which I should have in this week sometime. Until then, I'm keeping my training light and focusing on food - which last week was challenging - but this week will be GREAT! And on Monday next, I can't wait to post another great loss for you guys! (I like this whole 2 week weigh-in cycle!)

Also coming this week: I'll be officially registering for the Princess Half Marathon! YES!

How's your week look?

EPCOT AWAITS!

351.8 - Two Weeks Progress Report

2011-07-11T07:49:00.000-07:00

Wow - okay - a lot to report.

1) A loss of another 6.2 pounds total! Not bad for two weeks of hard training and good eating. :)

2) I have another doctor's appointment today to check in on my BP and see how the meds are doing. I think the doc will switch me to another med - since I seem to have developed a cough with this one.

3) We saw "Aladdin" - Disney Theatrical's newest production at the 5th Ave. Theatre - and wonder of wonders - who was sitting RIGHT BEHIND US? Yes - Alan Menken! I shook his hand - and said: "Thanks for...well...everything!"

He said: "Everything, huh? That's a lot!" and smiled.

Totally magical moment!

This week I'm going to be keeping up with the jogging during the week - and long distance on the weekends - and 75 crunches per night before bed. :)

How's YOUR week shaping up?

EPCOT AWAITS!

Happiest of Birthdays!

2011-07-07T06:47:00.000-07:00

Today is a day to celebrate in our family - because it is the birthday of this beautiful woman - my wonderful wife.

I'm not going to get all gushy and mushy here - because I've already done that at home - but here I just wanted to publicly say that I love you, Amber. And I hope that your gifts, our dinner, and our night out at the theatre make for a GREAT birthday for you!

EPCOT AWAITS!

900 Posts - I ran WHAT?

2011-07-02T07:12:00.000-07:00

I've been working with a new training buddy lately - and we've been working on food intake - and really ramping up my endurance.

I guess we figure that we KNOW I can WALK 13.1 miles - but I want good pacing, and to even RUN 13.1 miles. So my daily workouts include:

Alternating walk and jog days. Today, for instance was a hard workout day. It was only just shy of a mile - but I actually RAN a little less than half of it - and in one stretch. My legs are KILLING me.

Yesterday I did a relaxing walk around our local park with the family.

I also do 50 (upping to 75) crunches nightly - and next week will add some cross training.

And tomorrow is LONG run day. Tomorrow's goal is 1.5 miles total - with .5 miles being CONSISTENTLY run.

My average pacing is ending up where I need to be, but as the next six months happen, weight comes off, etc - the pace will increase drastically.

I'm really encouraged by this. And feeling stronger than ever. Really feel like I'm FINALLY getting some traction here. Finally pushing forward.

And feeling like January is going to be GREAT - or rather - a GREAT beginning. Because January, February, and September are TRAINING runs - for OCTOBER - which is my ultimate goal. :)

Who'd have thought I'd have RUN nearly half a mile consistently instead of walking it?

EPCOT AWAITS!

Some Hard Developments

2011-06-28T06:59:00.000-07:00

Well, my friends - I have good news and bad news.

Good news - I've been doing great on the workout front - following my schedule, working on my core, and really trying to push myself to longer and longer jogging segments.

Bad news - I've been to the doctor yesterday.

I am officially BACK on high blood pressure medication.

My doctor and I had a long talk about my training goals and my weight loss goals. She agrees that I'm on the right path - but wants to maintain healthy blood pressure until I can get the weight back off. She knows I've struggled and worked hard at this and wants to support me - and make sure my body is as healthy as possible.

She also suggested that if I'm not seeing the progress I want in the next several months - I might still want to consider using the surgical option as an additional tool to help make what I'm doing more successful.

I did NOT like that idea. Still don't. So I just work HARDER at it. Push harder. Further.

And accept where I am and get to where I wanna be.

I bring this to you - NOT so you can tell me that I've fallen backwards - I KNOW that part - but rather - so you can see where I am - and be inspired as to where I GO. And so you can be supportive.

Two suggestions have come from training buddies lately - and I'm going to use them both.

1) Stay away from the scale until my next doctor's appointment (2 weeks) - just focus on hard work - and let the scale do it's thing in the background.

2) Adjust my sign-off. See - I can make it to Main Street. I've never NOT done that. What I want is to FINISH strong.

So for today (and the foreseeable future):

EPCOT AWAITS!

A huge thanks to my teammates!

2011-06-22T05:52:00.000-07:00

Well today started out GREAT - went outside for another workout - and felt GREAT!

As I don't have a LOT of time this morning (have a trial to get to) - I wanted to just say a public thanks to my good friends and teammates - Jeff, Justin, and Amanda - you guys ROCK! And you know why!

Thanks for being there. :)

MAIN STREET AWAITS!

358 - Is Summer Here?

2011-06-20T06:37:00.001-07:00

We are supposed to have several days in a row of sunshine around these parts - which means only one thing - Seattle is getting a summer after all. :)

So I decided to do something this morning that I haven't done since January.

I laced up my shoes, and went OUTSIDE. I wanted to see exactly what I'm working with - especially carrying around a few extra pounds since last weigh-in.

And I feel like I got a good idea of what I need to stretch, what I need to improve, etc. I got a good baseline, and we only will improve from here in terms of training.

As for the blog - it looks a bit different, doesn't it?

Yeah - I'm abandoning the Grid motif. It just wasn't working for me. And Jeff left his vault - Justin had his car ride. Father's day was my "day of clarity." I'll detail it a bit - and might someday go into more details. But it was a rather intensely personal inner dialogue.

I realized that Walt was right. All my dreams CAN come true. IF I have the courage to pursue them. And what I haven't been doing is PURSUING them. I've been working on them - aiming for them - and walking towards them. And what's happened? I've yo-yo'd between progress and lack thereof. Does that make me a bad person? Nope. It makes me human. But I have to do better.

If I want to be healthy - to see my daughter's daughters - to live life to the fullest - to enjoy vacations and cruises and walks and runs and swimming and EVERYTHING life has to offer.

If I want to run (and yes, I SAID RUN) 4 races next year - I have GOT to get in a groove here. I have got to start walking the talk. Or running the talk, as it were.

And I know I can count on my teammates to support me and help me through rough patches, but MOST important - to celebrate my successes every day with me.

So with that - I'll sign off - head to work - and keep my attitude screwed on in the right direction.

MAIN STREET AWAITS!

Happy Father's Day

2011-06-18T23:44:00.001-07:00

This is a picture of me on the international gateway - with my dad.

Not a day goes by that I don't miss him and the joy he brought to my life.

The truth is that he was taken from us too soon. But that all of us who knew him are better for having him with us.

Today is Father's day - and today I am the one celebrated. By I will not forget my father in all of it. Cannot.

I want to wish all of you father's out there - a VERY happy father's day.

As for me - yes - I've struggled - and yes I'll continue to do so - but I have been spending a lot of time THINKING lately (like Justin in that long car ride) - and have made some pretty large headway in getting my mind right - so I can get my BODY right too.

I'll detail more in the days and weeks to come - but for now.

I just wanted to say Happy Father's Day. And to thank my dad for....everything.

MAIN STREET AWAITS!

Still Hanging in There

2011-06-14T12:10:00.000-07:00

Don't worry - I didn't vanish - but we've had a very busy few weeks - including Elizabeth getting sick again - she's likely got another ear infection - and is on her way to the doctor right now.

I'll update more in the next few days, hopefully. :)

MAIN STREET AWAITS!

354.6 - A Small-ish Gain

2011-06-06T07:38:00.000-07:00

Hey - okay - so I'm up a half pound. But having been sick a full week can play havoc on your system - especially when you can't exercise. So. Eh.

But this morning - I got back on the treadmill! And this week will be SUPER - I already know it!

We're getting there. Trust me - the mind is focusing - the body is coming into line - and all will be well in the world!

MAIN STREET AWAITS!

The Tomorrow Update

2011-06-01T18:35:00.001-07:00

Sorry for the delay - been doing a lot of resting.

I was diagnosed with a viral inner ear infection - the sole symptom of which was:

You guessed it.

Hitchcock films.

No no no - Vertigo.

Yes. I've been spinning for days. But the spinning is dying down, and I think tomorrow might be a "normal" day for me. If it is - then I have clearance to hit the treadmill on Friday. And to drive again tomorrow.

Let me tell you though - Vertigo is NO fun.

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354.1 - Four Point Two

2011-05-30T08:02:00.001-07:00

So - this week starts with a mixed bag.

I'm down four pounds - which feels great.

But I've also been sick for three days - which doesn't. Going to the doctor today.

I thought it was the after effects of my massage on Friday - lots of dizziness and lightheadedness - some vomiting. But three days is a bit much. So I'm going to go get checked out.

I'll update you all tomorrow.

But the good news is I'm nearly half way to my 15 pound goal!

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358.3 - Two and a Half Pounds

2011-05-23T06:49:00.000-07:00

Thought I'd share this photo for those of you who DIDN'T see Elizabeth's Easter Dress on Facebook. :)

So - this week - we lost 2.5 pounds - had good eating - good exercise - and an overall good week - putting me on track for my 15 pound goal and registration for race #2 in 2012.

That feels good to say. It feels good to be on track.

It just feels good overall. :)

Now - as for training - I've been reading the Galloway plan. And I REALLY like it. I'm going to start integrating some of his run/walk into my workouts - and then as we get a little closer to January (I think it's an 18 week plan) subbing it in entirely. In fact, rundisney.com usually has a "traning plan" for each race. :)

Alrighty guys - one week down - 7 to go - 12.5 pounds to go.

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A Touch of Reality - and a Spoonful of Sugar

2011-05-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

Okay - narrative and fun to the side. Let me tell you a story from yesterday.

Amber and I were lucky enough to see the Broadway production of Mary Poppins here in Seattle. It was marvelous. And during the intermission, we had a discussion. A heavy one.

I saw that next February, Beauty and the Beast will be playing - which is Amber's favorite play. I noted that we'd have to see it during the week - since it falls on Princess Weekend.

Amber then asked me a question. And it really struck deep. Not in a bad way. Just...deep.

Amber asked me if I really felt like I could be ready to run 4 half marathons by then. My training had been inconsistent. My eating had been hit and miss. And she didn't see the same drive and excitement that I had in 2007 when I began training for 2009.

And let's not forget that I'm now (albeit, in better shape) only about 10 pounds lighter than I was in 2007.

She totally believes I can do it. Just wonders if I have enough time to do it in 2012.

I told her I very much wanted to do it in 2012. That, yes, of late, my consistency has been lax. Very lax. But that seeing how far I've been, only to be back here - breaks my heart. And that I want to be the person I know I am inside - on the outside too.

But I also recognize that she has a point. If I'm not progressing as fast as I want to - then attempting the 4 in a year - and failing - could be worse than waiting. And it's not that she doesn't believe in me - or want me to succeed. Quite the opposite. She believes in me and WANTS me to succeed - and wants to make sure I'm READY to do so - instead of setting myself up to fail.

So we thought. And thought. And I asked her a question.

Registration for Princess opens in 60 days (ish) - what would you need to see from me in that time - to be willing to believe I can do it? To be ready to tell me to go ahead and register?

She asked if I could possibly be ready in the 7-8 months before January.

I told her that with consistent training (realizing that I'm starting from a place where I can go 13 miles - just not fast) - and good diet choices - I could lose 2 pounds a week and increase my speed each month. With that - I'd be down minimum 56-64 pounds by January. That would make me fitter than when I did Disneyland in 2009.

(mgreene - don't get excited - I'll get to you in a second)

So we agreed - two months of training - from now until July. Amber likes round numbers. So 15 pounds. If I can do that - then I can do it. Those are minimum numbers though. It SHOULD come off MUCH faster than that at the beginning - meaning it's still very possible for me to make the 100 pound mark.

But in any event - Chris is right. One week at a time.

And today I already worked out - and I even ran. Most of the workout was 3.3 - but I did a minute at 5.0. It kicked my butt. But I did it. And tomorrow I'll try two minutes - spread through the workout.

I can do this - I've done it before.

But for the next two months - I'll be updating here my progress - and dropping the "narrative" style. So strap in for some actual movement. The time has come.

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Tron-Experiment 626

2011-05-11T06:51:00.000-07:00

beep.....beep.....

crackle.....crackle.....bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzztttttttttt......

Stitch got it! Go talk to people!

Hey friends! It's me - I've managed to team up with Stitch-Tron here to get around GlaDOS for this transmission. GlaDOS has been something of a taskmaster and really isn't always being honest. She's not keeping up her end of the bargain.

The game grid this blog has moved to has great tests and tasks, to be sure. And I'm already 40% done with this weeks goals - and feel like I'm moving forward.

But those of you who know GlaDOS know that she's not what she seems to be.

I'm working with Stitch and some of the iso's I've met in here to try to take back the grid and make it something our team can use and be proud of. But of course the only way I'll do that is to keep getting stronger and faster - so to keep testing - and keep working "with" GlaDOS for the time being. But here's what I know: between 4 half marathons next year and the progress I'll make this year - this is going to be the GREATEST comeback story you've ever been a part of.

Meanwhile - eating and workouts are going according to her plan, and I'm making progress. Next week, she's talked about moving from time increases to speed increases. Perhaps jumping from 20 minutes at 3.0 to 20 minutes at 3.5.

In any event. We need to keep this short before she catches on.

But there is one thing that I've been missing!

Stitch - do I have time?

Stitch will hold transmission open! Voice has time!

Sweet.

Say it with me my friends!

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357.3 - Cake

2011-05-09T07:32:00.000-07:00

Each week after testing, this subject's progress will be evaluated. And should the subject be successful in his goals, a permanent mark will be placed in his file....followed by cake.

This week, the subject successfully completed five days of testing on a treadmill. This subject also lost 3.7 pounds. This despite having a nice dinner out of non-aperture approved food for Mother's Day.

All future celebrations will be approved by me. Rest assured.

As a result - this subject will be given this cake.

Don't worry - this cake is virtual only - and lies on the game grid. Although I have given it to the subject - he cannot eat it. Just stare at it. Endlessly. Forever. Drooling.

This week's testing cycle is as follows.

This subject will perform 20 minutes of exercise on a treadmill 5 days this week. One day has already been performed. Four days remain.

This subject........must be the pride of.....

This week's testing cycle begins in 3...2...1....

Woah - wait a minute, GlaDOS. You promised me something here.

Oh - that's right. I told you that upon successfully completing week one, you could make your comment about "Main Street."

Yeah. You said I could.

You are correct. I did say that. However, due to a required testing protocol, my previous statement about allowing you to speak about "Main Street" was a lie.

Testing begins in 3...2..1...

Mother's Day

2011-05-08T08:56:00.001-07:00

I hope it's happy and healthy for all of the mother's out there - especially my mother and wife!

More from me and a weekly wrap-up from GlaDOS tomorrow!

On Track

2011-05-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

As of this morning I'm on track to complete GlaDOS's NEW goal for me of 5 15 minute workouts this week. I'm not being boastful, mind you. Just reporting the information.

Good. As part of a required testing protocol, if you were being boastful, I'd have to take you down a peg or two.

Which is why I'm not being boastful.

In the new house, we have a new home theatre system. And let me tell you that Pirates of the Carribean has never looked so good as it does on our new 60" Sharp AQUOS HDTV. Holy cow, my friends. Holy cow!

You are blathering on about movies when you have a workout to do. This blog entry will end in three...two....one....

361 - Reboot Successful

2011-05-02T06:30:00.000-07:00

Hello friends! GlaDOS has allowed me to post this morning. Although she'll chime in here and there.

The Game Grid has been rebooted. This subject has undergone testing already today. His work is done - therefore - he may speak to you.

Let's start with an update. Things have been crazy since last we spoke - from the death of my grandmother - to some family dramas - to the move - to work - and you name it. As such - things have slid backwards a good amount.

In other words - this user has had a major weight variance shift.

I think they got that point. Anyways - now that we're moved - we have a treadmill and an elliptical here at the house - and GlaDOS has decided to monitor my training and help me get back where I need to be. I have four races to run - and now - a CRUISE to prepare for. Yup - we're going on the Fantasy in April!

Amanda - yes and no. I still plan on running all of the Disney Half's - EXCEPT Tinkerbell. Just can't do the beginning and end of January logistically.

To that end, this week - we are beginning our testing of this subject with a simple goal for each day. I want him to revitalize his legs. So he will workout for a minimum of 10 minutes per day for 5 days. He will also only eat Aperture Science approved foods.

See - and I already succeeded at this today! I did MORE than 10 minutes! I did 13 on the treadmill. And it felt GREAT.

Due to a testing variance......and your ego.....this weeks test parameters have now been changed. You will workout for a minimum of 15 minutes each day for 5 additional days. Today no longer counts, as you did not reach the 15 minute goal.

Hey - no problem!

We'll be doing weekly game grid challenges like this one - weekly weigh-ins - and monthly large game challenges.

This Month's Test: This user will successfully lose 10 pounds. Failure to do so will result in....penalties levied on your beloved companion cube.

I can do that. Just wait and see. Today is May 2. And it's the start of a whole new game.

One last update before I allow this user to sign off. There is a subject he has mentioned: mGreene. Mr. Greene - please recognize that this user has now enlisted the help of the superior minds of Aperture Sciences and Encom. In other words - you're not off the hook, checkbook boy.

January 2012 is 8 months away. 100 pounds away. And 13.1 miles away. This user is being tested and will be ready.

MAIN STREET AW...

Woah. GlaDOS. Wait a minute. Don't I get to sign off?

You just did. And until you have accomplished this week's daily and weekly goals, you will not say a word about Main Street.

Testing resumes in 3...2...1...

The Grid

2011-04-29T07:33:00.001-07:00

For those of you who have been inquiring as to whether this reboot is from the world of Tron or the world of Portal, Aperture Sciences wishes to enlighten you.

GlaDOS, your testing hostess, is an Aperture Sciences creation, designed to help this test subject through a series of tests. GlaDOS will monitor, comment, and, where minimally appropriate, encourage and punish. GlaDOS previously has been linked with testing of the Aperture Sciences Portal Device.

However - this new reboot project - has allowed Aperture Sciences to join forces with Encom - the company behind the "Tron" program - and it's main security feature "CLU" will be monitoring GlaDOS for any security breaches, while maintaining the game grid upon which this user's challenges will be faced.

In other words.

It's both.

That being said - the game grid will reboot in 3 days. Your continuing comments add to our computing power to boot the grid.

However - for additional motivation - we present an actual message from subject "Voice" for your consideration.

Actual message commencing in 3....2.....1....

Hey guys! The move is done - and we're getting settled in! But having hit a few snags lately, I figured I needed a reboot of my systems - so I enlisted the help of these companies to help me reboot my efforts! The quote above from Tron Legacy really, to me, applies to the world of running and racing - and me!

I've been working out already on the treadmill and elliptical that we bought for the new house - and am feeling good about getting back into the swing of things. On Monday we'll have an official weigh in - and GlaDOS will announce my first week's testing challenges - and she's already registered me for the 2012 WDW Half Marathon!

I'm really excited and can't wait to sebzzzzzzzzzzttttttttttttttt.......

As usual, this user's enthusiasm has gotten him carried away. This time literally. I had CLU and his men take him back to the.....calming chamber to spend some time with his companion cube.

Game Grid Reboots in Three Days.

Standby.

Companion Cube

2011-04-28T07:27:00.000-07:00

While this user's game grid is being rebooted, he is being linked to his Aperture Sciences Weighted Companion Cube. This cube, while inanimate and unable to speak, loves this user, and will never threaten to stab him, hurt him, or be a burden to him in any way.

The users formal testing will begin upon rebooting of the game grid - however - the user has been undergoing basic test familiarization using the all new Encom Systems NordicTrack C900 Treadmill Operation Device. This user is being brought up to speed, so to speak, so he can begin testing immediately upon the game grid's reboot.

The testing will consist of small daily tasks, medium weekly tasks, and large scale yearly tasks. The first of which has already been selected and registered within the system. Should the user successfully complete his regular testing, the first large scale test will commence in January, 2012.

Should the user fail to complete his regular testing, his companion cube will be euthanized.

Game Grid reboots in 4 days.

Standby.

Aperture Welcomes You

2011-04-27T09:15:00.001-07:00

All testing will be monitored by our state of the art GlaDOS system.

GlaDOS will monitor all testing, exercise, physical progress, measurements, and goals of this test subject. GlaDOS will also be fully administering the Game Grid upon it's reboot. We are quite satisfied to have paired with Encom systems to create the ultimate physical and mental testing environment for this test subject. We here at Aperture Laboratories wish to welcome you to the future of this users existence.

Cyberdyne systems T-1000 project was substandard and rejected for this project. All T-1000 subjects were euthanized in the Aperture Science T-1000 euthanization chamber. Test subjects uniformly preferred the Aperture Science Weighted Companion Cube to a "terminator".

If the Weighted Companion Cube could talk, and we would like to take this opportunity to remind you that it cannot, it would tell you that it loves you. And that it cannot wait for cake.

The Game Grid will reboot in 5 days, as per the countdown clock above and to your right. Every comment increases our computing power to the Game Grid. Continuing to comment will enable Aperture Science and Encom to bring you a more stable, robust, and satisfying testing experience.

Standby.

Please Stand By - This User is Being Rebooted

2011-04-26T06:35:00.000-07:00

This reboot is being brought to you by:

Aperture Laboratories: We do what we must, because we can.

and

Encom. We are watching over you.

Boxing

2011-03-30T05:51:00.000-07:00

Our house is a MESS.

Or rather - I should say - our house is empty and ready for our walkthrough today.

Our CONDO is a MESS.

We're likely moving NEXT WEEKEND.

This is exciting!!

Can't wait to be in the new house. I feel like a lot of things are on HOLD right now until we move - can't wait until we have the new exercise equipment in the house - and I'm really able to kick this stuff into high gear!

Disneyland was awesome - but crowded. I loved it - but I still think I prefer WDW - it handles crowds better - and because it's a "vacation" park - not a day park for locals - it feels like folks hold their time there more sacred.

I'll have more updates soon - but much like MANY of my friends (Jeff W, Justin, Byron, etc) - this blog might get a little sparse for a few weeks while I move and refocus and get back on my feet! I'll try to keep you all updated as often as I can! Likely a few times until moving day. :)

But don't worry - normal blogging will resume as soon as possible. :) Complete with weigh-in updates - WW Points updates - exercise updates - runDisney updates - and more!

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345.8 - Disneyland Here We Come

2011-03-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

After several VERY long and stressful weeks - the trip is upon us!

First off - down 2.6 pounds this week - which is quite nice, thank you. :) Hopefully we'll maintain or even lose a bit at Disneyland. :) We are also marching slowly towards our closing date of April 7. Soon we'll be in an entirely new home with a BUNCH of new things to help support our goals. :)

That being said - let's talk turkey! Or mouse. Or duck. Or whatever!

I'm going to Disneyland! We leave Wednesday late afternoon - arrive in Anaheim - and are staying on DVC points at Paradise Pier! Thursday and Friday we'll be meeting up with Paul Barrie and Tairy Barrie (that name is SO cute) and some other friends to hang out in the parks!

We're doing lunch at CLUB 33 on Thursday! :)

Dinner at Ariel's on Friday - with the World of Color package!

Lunch at the Bayou Saturday - just us - so hopefully we'll sit by the water so Elizabeth can see the boats go by!

And breakfast Sunday at the Storyteller's Cafe before heading home!

I'll be facebooking as we go! So make sure you're following or friending me. :) I'll be taking pictures and video galore - speaking of which - one of the projects I'm going to work on after the move is really working with our video and photos to create a digital home base for it all - which means I can post some of it here, too! :)

Anyhow....I'll check in again before I leave!

But yet again I can say - and really get excited about the fact that...

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The Ashland

2011-03-17T07:44:00.000-07:00

So - this is our new house plan. :)

First a quick update on the week. I'm struggling a bit this week with getting out of bed to the gym - mostly because when I AM getting sleep - then Elizabeth ISN'T. Last night I spent until after 1am up with her. Which meant getting up at 5am to workout was unlikely.

I cannot WAIT until I have that workout room in my house so I can workout at 8pm or 5am or 2:30am - or WHENEVER it's convenient - without going ANYWHERE - and while still being home in case of baby issues. For reference, the workout room will be the downstairs "den".

Now - for those of you who worry - fear not - I am NOT going to use the "I'm going to have a workout room soon" or "I'm going to Disneyland" or "well, we're moving" as excuses to be complacent over the next month. What I do know is that whatever progress I make will be AMPLIFIED after I have that room. :) In other words - I'll keep moving forward - and move forward FASTER after everything settles.

I haven't yet registered for the 2012 Donald - mostly because while we're waiting to close our loan, I shouldn't really spend much of any money on anything but essentials. But as soon as we close, I'm planning on registering to take advantage of the discount for Disney Visa holders. :)

2012 is going to be the year of five medals - and that commemorative Donald is #1.

And from May to January is 8 full months of training and weight loss to look forward to! And we ARE going to hit that 100 pound mark. Even though we've stalled a bit - we ARE going to hit it - if for NO other reason than - I WANT TO SEE MGREENE PAY (you don't mind if I make you the "villain" in my story, do you? It's not personal - just helps motivate!)

But we are also going to divide it into smaller chunks.

First goal - lose 8 pounds by moving day (roughly a month away). So I'd be down 15 overall.

Then - another 10. To get to my 25 pound reward (and you KNOW I'm still waiting for it).

And so on.

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348.4 - A New Beginning

2011-03-14T06:55:00.000-07:00

Lots to discuss today.

But first - let's talk about that number above.

Yes - I'm up about 3.6 pounds from last week.

Frankly - given the last two weeks and how they've gone - I'm not going to sweat it. It's been a roller coaster. That being said - today things get back on track. A nice EVEN KEELED track.

Back to points and to the gym. Back to counting and being accountable. Back to where we were three weeks ago BEFORE the spit hit the fan.

And we now have a NEW tool to help in this fight!!!

I now present to you - OUR NEW HOME!

A view of our driveway.

WE HAVE A TREE!!! This is our tree - and it's already budding!

We have purchased a brand new DR Horton home near my office - it's about 2650 sq feet - and BEAUTIFUL. 4 bedrooms and a huge bonus room upstairs. An enormous kitchen and living suite - with a downstairs den.

Did I say den?

What I meant to say is WORKOUT ROOM. We've already selected a NordicTrack Treadmill and Elliptical that will be purchased just after closing (which, incidentally is April 7) and delivered as soon as possible thereafter.

Having these in the home will make EVERY DAY a gym day. And every workout LONGER (since I don't have to drive or deal with weather or rain or sleepiness or anything - I just have to get my butt out of bed and stumble down the stairs).

The 15th anniversary Donald is going to be mine. That's 1 of 5 for 2012.

Oh yeah - and I fully intend to make mgreene write that check.

I may have stumbled, but don't count me out yet.

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Blocks and Puzzles

2011-03-07T21:23:00.000-08:00

We sat on the floor,

Doing blocks and puzzles,

Telling horribly bad jokes,

Laughing until our sides hurt.

You never had a cross word for me,

Always told me how much you loved me,

And appreciated every moment we spent together.

You saw your name in lights on your 80th,

The scoreboard at a Mariner's game lit up your face.

And today, you joined your husband again at last.

He came for you,

To end your suffering,

To end your pain.

And he did it,

Of all days,

Today.

On your Wedding Anniversary.

in Memory of my Grandmother

Sylvia Martonchik

born: 6/20/22

died: 3/7/11

Weekend Update

2011-03-05T20:45:00.000-08:00

"In tonight's news - a new Winnie the Pooh character will be written into the newest Pooh book to replace Eeyore....who finally did it."

That being said here's the REAL weekend update.

Elizabeth threw up all day Friday, meaning we didn't get our time alone. We're pushing back our celebration a week. My grandmother has now been admitted to the hospital with a UTI as well as pneumonia - they're giving her IV antibiotics and going to try to buff her up enough to go home - but we could be looking at days or a week or two left. And after visiting her, came home to an inconsolable Elizabeth. Wailing and screaming. No reason we could see why. Until a diaper change. Rushed her to the doctor again - yup - she compounded her ear infection with a VERY painful yeast infection. So now when she pees. She screams. LOUD. And a lot.

*sigh*

Needless to say - we're eating what we can, when we can. I'm not eating a lot - which is good - except that when I DO eat, it's whatever we bring in or order out for. Tomorrow we're restocking the fridge - and as we go into a hopefully "normal" week - I'm getting back on track. All that understood - I think I still may lose weight this week. Not sure yet.

Anyhow. I'm doing the best I can to hang in there and keep plugging along. We go house hunting tomorrow still. And we're already looking at exercise equipment for the house. Can't wait for that. I know that I'm headed in the right direction overall - and just have to kick it into high gear. I also know that there's always "something" - and it's how I choose to deal with those that really will define my future.

So I'm choosing to acknowledge the "somethings" - and do my best to get past them.

And get back to Main Street.

Planning for future races and trips coming soon!

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Five Years

2011-03-04T08:07:00.000-08:00

Today I've had my queen officially for five years.

And today we celebrate.

But before we get to that. A few updates that make this celebration that much more difficult - and sacred at the same time.

1) Elizabeth. Remember that low grade temp? Yeah - blossomed into 102.7 - 103.2 for the last two days. Ear infection. Now on medication. And throwing up anything we put into her. Including her antibiotics and milk. But Auntie is still going to watch her as of right now.

2) Grandma. Is back in CHF - and yesterday we made the decision to transfer her to a "hospice" care plan. Keep her more comfortable. It's a matter of weeks or months now. Oh yeah - and did I mention that they called last night to tell me she now has pneumonia?

But even if it's just for an hour or two - Amber and I are going to spend some time alone today - even if the world crumbles around us - we are going to dedicate some time to remembering why we love each other.

And that no matter what the world throws at us.

We get through it better now because we have each other.

I love you, Amber!

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Our Castle

2011-03-02T07:35:00.000-08:00

Well - it's official! We've obtained loan approval and talked with our realtor.

We start house hunting on Sunday!

We've got a nice list of property to look at - and are REALLY excited to go see some of these places so that we can find a single family home (not a condo like ours now) with a yard - and lots of space - to move into.

And it may be as soon as April when we move! How cool is that for a birthday present! A new home!!!

That's the sum of things so far this week - rebooting - workouts scheduled for tomorrow, Friday and Sunday. And of course, our anniversary on Friday/Saturday - if Elizabeth cooperates (she's running a very low-grade temp this morning - so who knows what Friday'll bring).

TTFN!

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346 - Reboot

2011-02-28T07:38:00.001-08:00

So it was a bad week last week.

I'm up 3 pounds. And that's going to happen at times. Especially when you're not sleeping, not exercising, not eating most days, and then eating more than you should when you DO eat, and dealing with an emotional roller coaster.

But here's the good news.

It was NOT as bad as it would have been before.

And knowing what I know about me - I got up this morning - and just REBOOTED. Already been to the gym.

Here are THIS week's Vinymation goals - and this week will be the first I've opened in three weeks! Time to get my hands on one!

1) Weight. Check.

2) Points. Stay within. Go into weekly no more than TWO days (probably Friday and Saturday as we celebrate our anniversary).

3) Exercise. Five days. One down.

Okay - we're past the hard week. Now let's have a few GREAT ones before Disneyland!

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Today

2011-02-25T06:41:00.001-08:00

Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday.

And I miss him - so much.

So today we will remember, honor, laugh, and cry.

Today will be about my dad.

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Insomnia

2011-02-23T23:15:00.000-08:00

It was one of the worst parts of last year this time.

Sitting up at night. Unable to sleep. Wishing to do nothing more than turn my brain off. But also knowing that as soon as I did - my dad would be in there - and I'd be so sad my insides hurt.

And so I couldn't sleep. Sometimes until after 2am.

And so now I'm having trouble again.

I'm staying on points this week - and still going to get in 4 workouts (maybe one tomorrow, assuming I get some sleep, AND the roads are clear enough to get to the gym) - but I'm also being realistic.

This has been a REALLY hard week on me emotionally.

And somehow I'm holding it together. No candy. No cookies. Nothing UNtracked.

And for tonight. I think that's enough.

Friday, we are choosing to have dinner with my mother at a Chinese restaurant to honor my dad's favorite foods. Who knows if/what/how much of it we'll eat. I'll likely eat almost nothing the rest of the day.

Next week will be better.

And next weekend I celebrate being married for FIVE YEARS. We are leaving Elizabeth for the night with my sister in law for the first time - and just having an US night.

Talk about a pendulum swinging.

Incredible sadness this week.

Celebration next week.

And before you know it (March 24) I'll be in Disneyland.

And you WONDER why I'm not sleeping. :)

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342.7 - TWELVE

2011-02-21T07:09:00.000-08:00

A dirty dozen. A carton of eggs. The end of everyone's favorite Sesame Street cartoon about numbers!

Yes, my friends, I'm down 12.3 pounds! (4.3 this week!)

And the illness seemed to help more than hurt. I spent about 3 days on the couch eating soup and crackers. Doing VERY little. And then Elizabeth ended up sick.

But today we're all healthy - and I've already been to the gym!

The cough is still here - which made exercise fun - but I did it!

So this week's Vinylmation goals, as we move forward?

1) Weigh. Check.

2) 4 gym workouts - one down.

3) Staying on points.

But here's the BEST part.

I'm OVER 10% of the way to making mgreene eat his words! WOOHOOO!!!! :)

See you guys soon!

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Petrie Dishes

2011-02-16T08:03:00.000-08:00

Okay - so this is Petrie from "Land Before Time" - but who wants to look at a picture of bacteria growing?

So good news: I'm doing well in terms of eating this week. In fact - I'm not eating much at all.

Bad news: those allergies that hit on Monday - weren't allergies. I'm sick. Again. Likely a respiratory virus that the baby brought home from day care. Sheesh. They're teaching her to share - but let's not share EVERYTHING - okay? Those places are like little bundles of illness WAITING to be brought home. Sore throat - coughing up junk - headache - sweats - the whole shebang.

In any event - I'm staying home today to heal. And will update more soon.

Also - since someone asked and I forgot to say - grandma is home from the hospital and doing well.

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347.0 - Sneezy

2011-02-14T07:13:00.000-08:00

Lots to talk about today.

First - Vinylmation - this was the first week I didn't get to open one. Not because I didn't stay on plan 5/7 days - but because I missed one out of 5 workouts. And a deal is a deal. So - new goals.

1) Weigh. Check.

2) Stay on points ALL SEVEN DAYS.

3) Four workouts this week (why only four? Keep reading).

Weight. I'm up about .9 pounds this week - which I'll admit to feeling sucky about. But then again - it's a minor setback that I can easily undo and MORE this week. Last week was rough. This week will be better.

Sneezy - I woke up with a MASSIVE allergy attack. Head pounding. The whole thing. Just hoping I'm not getting a sinus infection. But this is why only four workouts this week. If I AM getting sick - I want to give myself permission to rest. If not - then we'll hit the gym more.

In any event - the next two weeks are going to be hard for me - for obvious reasons. (Has it REALLY been a year? Holy cow.) But I'm still here plugging along - doing my best to make positive life changes and kick this thing in the butt.

And mgreene - don't think a .9 gain gets you off the hook - keep your checkbook where you can see it. I'm GOING to beat you at this one. :)

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Eerily Familiar

2011-02-11T06:18:00.000-08:00

Okay - first an update. Just got back from the gym. One soaked shirt. Check. Commenting on other's blogs - you're right - I need to do more of that! I promise I will!!

Now - onto today's topic.

This week has been weird. And a little scary. Kind of like Deja Vu.

As you know, my grandmother is in the hospital. She went in on Wednesday with some congestive heart failure - which is nothing new for her - and is currently being stabilized to be sent home. On it's face - no worries.

But - going to see her was WAY harder than I thought.

Because Monday will be one year ago that my father went into the hospital with some congestive heart failure. And I walked the halls of the hospital. And eleven days later he was gone.

And as we approach that date, I find myself incredibly sensitive to anything sad or upsetting. And I found going to the hospital to see my grandmother incredibly hard.

Now there's very little chance that my grandmother is NOT going to go home. Let's be clear.

But the similarities were unmistakable.

Discussions about conditions and doctors who's names we hadn't mentioned in a year. Hearing the hacking cough of a man about my dad's age who was clearly in CHF. And remembering what he looked like in the bed before he passed.

The next two weeks are going to be rough for me, I think.

I'm already having trouble sleeping. Vivid - and sometimes upsetting - dreams.

But I'm staying on track. I'm staying on program. I'm exercising. I'm working. Most days I'm fine - but when it hits, it hits hard and unexpectedly.

And I'm processing. I'm getting through this process.

Step by step. With the help of you: my friends and family.

Now something fun: because of scheduling - Amber and I are observing Valentine's Day TODAY! We're dropping off Elizabeth at daycare - and going to see TANGLED (FINALLY!) and just to hang out together alone for a few hours. I can't wait!

One more side note: have you gone to www.charitymodelsearch.org and "favorited" Elizabeth yet? C'mon! It's FREE - it takes a second. Give her five stars for free - and help her win the title of "CUTEST KID IN AMERICA!"

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The benefits of the ellipse

2011-02-09T06:13:00.000-08:00

Or rather of the elliptical trainer.

1) Low impact on the knees - so I can really push hard - not hurt - and really sweat a lot.

2) Easy access - there are LOTS at the gym (and we'll have our own in the new house).

3) It's softer...kinda. Here's what I mean. I was supposed to do EA Active today. But the problem is - if I'm working out at 5am and jumping and running in the living room - it'll wake Amber and Elizabeth. And that's BAD. So instead - I headed to the gym for a great elliptical workout. Soaked a shirt. :) And will likely use the gym more in the mornings. EA will be a backup for when I can't get to the gym in the mornings. At least for now. They have some REALLY good cardio stuff on there - stepping etc.

So - in any event. Yesterday was an off day. Had a LOT going on - crazy work stuff - grandma taken to the hospital - friends from out of town (Paul Barrie!) - and just a crazy day. So I moved yesterday's workout to Friday.

But I just keep plugging away making progress and heading in the right direction.

How's YOUR February shaping up?

And where IS everybody? I mean - here we are making progress - doing well - and all the commenters are GONESVILLE!

Where ARE you all? Yes - even you lurkers!

Hmm...I'll have to be controversial again. ;)

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346.1 - Progress

2011-02-07T07:16:00.001-08:00

And here they are - some of my favorite photopass pictures from our January trip!!

From Elizabeth watching the Dapper Dans - to my mom holding on for dear life on Test Track - to one of the best pictures taken of Amber and I ever - these are really good photos!

So - last week went quite well! I stayed on plan - exercised four times (3 EA workouts and one elliptical workout) - and lost another pound!

I know - Chris wanted to see FIVE pounds this week - but 1-2 pounds per week is what is recommended for WW. I'd have rather had 2 - but I won't complain about heading in the right direction. :)

However - since this is a short month - I have to kick into high gear to hit my club 8 goal this month!

Here are the Vinylmation goals this week:

1) Weigh-in

2) Keep to my points

3) Workout FIVE times (tuesday, wednesday, thursday, saturday, sunday)

I'll post progress updates as we go.

Congratulations to you all for your 5ks this weekend! And congrats to Team Voice for raising $134 towards our charity goals!

Let's keep this momentum moving forward!

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GIMME FIVE

2011-02-05T06:57:00.001-08:00

Alrighty! I have just completed the Team Voice Virtual 5k entitled "Gimme five!" and donated FIVE TIMES FIVE dollars to Make-a-Wish for our Team!

Actually - I did more than 5k - I did 3.2 miles in 40 minutes on the elliptical - soaking my shirt and burning well over 350 calories in the process!

I'm proud of my teammates today - and proud of our supporters!

Let's capitalize on the momentum and PUSH FORWARD!

Don't put the donation off - don't say you'll remember to do it later.

Take 2 minutes - click on the donate link - and put your five bucks in.

GREAT JOB TEAM!

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Elizabeth's First Charity Event

2011-02-04T08:18:00.000-08:00

HELLO BLOGPEOPLE!!!

Daddy said I could use his blog today to ask you all for some help on MY project. I know Daddy is doing great on his project to get healthier and raise money for Make-a-Wish - and is doing something called a five-k tomorrow. But today - I want to tell you about MY charity project.

My friends at Artis Photography took another picture of me. This one! It was in a really comfy chair. And they entered me into a contest to find the "cutest kid in America". Daddy and Mommy say I'm cutest for sure.

But I need YOUR help to win!

Click on this link here: http://www.charitymodelsearch.org/ci.php/photos/showphoto/446

Now - this contest lets you do two things:

1) You can register your e-mail address and give me up to five points for FREE! (PLEASE give me all five!)

2) If you want - you can also pay for votes - $1 per vote. All the money goes to a charity that helps give sick kids family photos! I love my photos and so I want them to have some too!

The top five point and vote getters from each region will become finalists who will be judged by photo experts!

I REALLY WANNA BE A FINALIST!

So - will you help me? Even just the five free points will help - and it'll take you like 1 or 2 minutes! Pretty please!! Cuz you all think I'm cute right?

Can't wait to see all Daddy's friends again soon!

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The Team Voice "Gimme 5!" 5k Challenge!

2011-02-02T06:05:00.000-08:00

Okay friends - our first official TEAM VOICE VIRTUAL EVENT has been announced. And let me tell you about it - and then how YOU can participate and/or support us!

There's lots of big news coming in the next days and weeks - so I'm thrilled to tell you about this!

First of all - a quick update - so far - I'm totally on plan this week - including a great EA workout today - one scheduled Thursday, Friday, and Sunday as well. And Saturday is the Gimme 5 Challenge!

So here's the challenge - right from Chris:

“Gimme 5! 5k” That’s right, you heard me, I want a 5k and a 5 spot this coming Saturday (2/5) from all Team Voice! I’d like to see everyone do their 5k and then donate $5 to our cause. It’s just the bump we need to show we are serious about getting going as well as giving us our first virtual event of the year. Get out there on Saturday, yes…Saturday..not Sunday…not Friday… I don’t care what time of day or what time you put in, lets ALL clock in.

This Saturday I'll be committing to putting in 3.1 miles - minimum. I'm proud to announce that Team Voice is also now OFFICIALLY partnered with the Make-a-Wish foundation - and that EVERY DOLLAR we raise goes to help a seriously ill child have their wish to go to WDW. I am so stoked about this you can't even imagine! You can find a NEW donation link on the sidebar - or just click on this link:

https://secure.wish.org/ourfriends/017-000/teamvoice.htm

So - how can YOU help?

1) Just cheer on our members! If you're not able to give us 5k this Saturday - just make the rounds on the blogosphere and facebook and congratulate those who do!

2) JOIN US! If you're willing and able - GIMME 5! this Saturday. Now - let's say you're not a runner. WALK. If you're not a walker - ELLIPTICAL. BIKE. SWIM. Just go 5k this Saturday and do it for Team Voice!

3) SUPPORT US! Commit to giving me five for my 5k. Tell me that you'll click on our donate link on Saturday and donate FIVE dollars (one latte) to these kids in honor of our virtual event. This is our first virtual event of 2011 - and it's small - fun - and fast. And you can give five bucks (one subway sandwich) to Make-a-Wish and Team Voice. And when you donate - put in a comment - tell us why you're donating - and for who - give the team member an "atta boy" or "atta girl" - whatever! Just SHOW US your support for our mission!

4) DO ALL THREE ABOVE!!! I am. Yup - I'm supporting my teammates - giving 5k - and giving AT LEAST $5.

So what do you think, my friends?

Are you ready to GIMME FIVE?!

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347.1 - February here we come!

2011-01-31T05:34:00.000-08:00

Alright! I made it through a looooong work week and a week of feeling bloaty and weird - to find myself down another pound! (I'll note that the club 8 graphic has me down 7 - when in fact I'm down 7.9 - but I'm rounding DOWN not up) - and I made my Vinylmation goal last week. :) So far I've opened Mushu and Pinnochio. :)

This week is a lot less stressful at work - and I've ramped up my goals for the week to match.

Vinylmation Goals:

1) Weigh in. Check.

2) Stay WITHIN my daily point allotment for WW. (5 out of 7 days is a pass - meaning I can dip into weekly points twice this week)

3) Workout FIVE TIMES (4 out of 5 is a pass).

My workout plan this week is to start a new EA challenge. I know - I'm not done with the three week. Except that I am. Because when I used it last - I changed a setting, and hit a button wrong, and it ERASED my progress - forcing me to start over. But I like it enough that I'm going to start the NINE WEEK challenge.

On NON EA days - I will be in the gym making friends with the Elliptical. :) Sweaty shirt goal in place.

So - for Club 8 purposes - February has now begun - and at the end - I will be 339.1 or better. :)

I want to congratulate all my teammates for taking on the monthly Goofy Challenge - GREAT idea Justin - and I can't wait to get my hands on one of those bronzes. :) Maybe I'll shoot for that in March or April as EA winds down and mileage winds up. :)

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The Trip - Part I

2011-01-27T06:19:00.000-08:00

Before I get to the trip report - let's check in on how the week is going.

I'm doing well on my Vinylmation goals - I have two more EA workouts scheduled - tomorrow and Saturday. I'm counting my points (although Tuesday nearly spent all my weekly overflow points) - and feeling good about the program.

Although I feel very bloaty. Like I feel like I'm carrying extra weight. And sure enough I checked the scale today - and I'm up a tad from Monday. Sure - there are fluctuations and we're looking for an overall trend - but I'm going to be extra diligent the rest of this week.

And next week I'm adding an exercise element. Now that I'm back (sorta) in the swing of accounting for my food and exercise - on days where I do NOT do EA Active - I'll hit the gym for the elliptical machine. A very good friend of mine gave me a fun goal to try - every time I work out - do so until the shirt I'm wearing is good and soaked. I like it! I'm gonna try it. :)

And now without further ado - let's do an overview of our trip! I'll likely talk more about individual topics in depth in other posts.

Ah....Bay Lake Towers. This was the view from our room. And what an amazing room it was. HUGE living room and kitchen area. We used the Goodings delivery service and really found it convenient. Shortly after checking in our luggage, our floral, and our groceries arrived. So we unpacked and made ourselves at home. We had a wonderful dinner at Citricos that first night - and really. WHAT a dinner.

I can't leave our first day though without mentioning having Amanda join us on the DME bus from the airport! What a nice surprise! It's always good to see her smiling face!

After doing the expo and preparing for the race - we used the day before for our Photopass portrait session. This time at the Floridian. And here's a great shot of Elizabeth and grandma! Having my mom with us on this trip added some interesting layers - all good of course - but with her mobility issues - we got her a guest assistance card. It speeded along the waiting for attractions - but we moved at a very slow pace. This allowed us to just take in the atmosphere that much more! Mom says she had a really nice time - and we really enjoyed having her! Family vacations are the best!
Speaking of family - here's one of my favorite shots from our portrait session. REALLY love seeing Elizabeth up there on the shoulders.
Second favorite? This one. Mostly because I love hugs. :)
Park touring was slow given the baby naptime issues and the grandma mobility issues - and the OMG it's fricken freezing in here Mr. Bigglesworth issues - but we still had a WONDERFUL time. One note to Disney though: when it's freezing - put a warming lamp in the wind tunnel vortex of doom connecting the Contemporary to the BLT. Just saying. :)

Some of the high points from the trip (and there'll be more photopass photos as soon as my CD arrives):

Citricos

My mom on test track (wait until you see THAT photo)

Seeing Team Voice

Riding the carousel with Elizabeth

Watching Amber ride Dumbo with Elizabeth

Watching my mom ride Tower of Terror and Everest

Spending a day in the Animal Kingdom with my friends Mark and Elaine and little Mark

Dinner with Uncle Michael at the California Grill

The view from our room

Watching the Dapper Dans on Main Street with Amber and Elizabeth

So - all that being said - here's my question for you, dear reader.

What do you want to know more about? Ask and you'll receive. :)

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Pride

2011-01-26T05:24:00.000-08:00

So today I'm proud of my accomplishment yesterday.

What accomplishment you ask? Glad you asked.

See - yesterday was a day from heck - it really got away from me - and I found myself somewhere I didn't want to be having lunch in the car - Burger King.

But - no excuses, right? That's our new mantra.

I accounted for what I ate. I dipped into my weekly "overflow" points.

I didn't let it get me down.

And I came home and worked out. (Speaking of which - I can barely sit - EA Active is KILLING me. LOL)

So what did I really do? I had a day that didn't go as planned - and I rolled with it and did NOT let it derail me. And when something like that happens - I prefer it at the beginning of the week - so I have five days of good stuff ahead of me before Monday. :)

Okay - since you've all been waiting SO patiently - TOMORROW starts my January 2011 Trip Report. :) WITH PICTURES. Maybe. ;)

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Trace and Lisa FINALLY do it

2011-01-25T06:16:00.000-08:00

They finally tie the knot in about an hour.

What were YOU thinking? Sheesh! This is a DISNEY blog. :)

And I wanted to convey my most sincere congratulations, and give all of you who might not have a place or the ability to watch their webcast, to say the same.

Lisa - Trace - you guys are totally made for each other - and I wish you all the love and happiness in the world.

And I can't wait for our next 3am Monorail ride together.

Mazel Tov my friends!

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348.1 - Getting Active

2011-01-24T06:47:00.000-08:00

Wow - what a great start - down 6.9 pounds this week! I'm really proud of that! I stuck to WW - didn't really feel deprived or like it was a struggle - and got in three workouts. So I get my Vinylmation! (When they arrive.)

Including one on my all new PS3 EA Active 2 game.

And WOW.

Let me tell you something folks - I'm SORE today from it. And I worked harder for 20 minutes that I have in awhile. Walking is no biggie for me - nor is elliptical. But squats, presses, kick-ups, jumping, and a lot of fun intense cardio is. I was sweating buckets and got my heart rate above 150 for most of it.

I started their "Three-week" cardio jumpstart program. It's four days a week. And I'm going to focus on completing that. Change things up a bit. Keep my body guessing. :) Besides - weight loss and health are my primary goals - so working harder on those than distance and pacing right now seems like the right thing to do.

Goals for this week:

1) Weigh in. Check!

2) Keep within points. Measure each day.

3) Complete week one of the three week EA challenge.

What are yours?

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One Little Spark

2011-01-21T12:27:00.000-08:00

Alright - I'm staying!

I never imagined how much of a positive response yesterday's post would generate - and yea - some folks were less than positive - but for the vast majority - you either told me that I should do what I needed to for me - or that you'd miss me and that you draw inspiration from my trials and tribulations.

And as I pondered what to do - I glanced at my wrist.

And saw my new custom watch. A final gift of sorts from my father. And it bears Figment on it - and the words "one little spark". And it IS my inspiration. It helps me remember why I do what I do. And to remind me that I'm succeeding already.

EDITOR'S NOTE: Originally I'd promised myself a watch as a "success" gift for 20 lbs lost. However - using some money that I'd been given by my father (through sale of some of his jewelry) - I chose to purchase one as a memorial to him - and a reminder of why I'm still fighting every day to get better. Amber even said to me, after purchasing it: "I know why you originally said you wanted the watch - but now the message on it is - 'this had better work'." So it becomes a symbolic push forward.

Thus far this week - I'm well on my way to my vinylmation goals for the week - I've counted points every day - and have stayed within my goals. And I'm feeling energized, jazzed, inspired, and just overall....

GOOD

about things.

And I'm going to use this blog to chart my progress. My trials. My ups. My downs. My goals. My successes. And my journey from me - to INSPIRED me. :) And I hope you'll all join me.

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Should I shut down this blog?

2011-01-20T06:52:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone - first a quick update. This week so far I've kept within my point balance every day. I'm going to the gym today for my first of four days of workouts. And I'm feeling really good about this week's progress! I've done everything I've set out to do. One quick note - Amanda - I'm not keeping track of January mileage because a) I'm more concerned about getting the weight loss started; b) I have no accurate count of my walking mileage from my 11 days in WDW. Doesn't mean I'm not putting mileage in. Just that I'm not going to keep track of a monthly total for KOTH.

Now - today's topic was supposed to be a trip report. I'm pushing that back a day or two.

Yesterday I had a really rough day. Long. Work stuff mostly. But I also had a long talk with my mother regarding our trip. She had a great time, but is concerned about my health and my future. But one of the REALLY big things she's concerned about is this blog. And she asked me to tell you all about her concern.

She thinks that this blog has become a place for people to come together to dump on me. A place for me to recount failed goals and for you all to throw negative energy at me because of it. She thinks that putting myself out there is a bad idea - emotionally and spiritually. She is concerned that I give you all access to my private life through my posts - and many of you are strangers - you could be ax murderers - or just people who enjoy tearing others down. And if you surround yourself with negativity - you're asking for problems - both small and big.

She really thinks that I should shut down this blog and walk away from it. And from all of you. In fairness, I believe she's only really thinking about the non "team" members here.

I disagree.

This blog has existed for four years - and I had a separate blog for two years prior. It is a useful reflection tool for me. And it is a place where in the past, we have done MUCH good. We've raised a lot of money for charity - and formed a team of friends and supporters. The reason much of this blog has turned negative lately is because I've been moving backwards instead of forwards. And now as I turn the other direction and move forwards again - maybe you'll all turn around with me?

I consider most of my readers and commenters friends. Some of you I don't know. Some of you I don't agree with. Some of you make me downright angry at times. I can't even tell you how upset I was on Tuesday reading that Hug thinks I should throw my medal in the trash.

And mgreene - who I'll admit - is now starting to turn positive. Still upsets me. Why?

Because I'm making progress NOW. And yes - I have a long way to go to get back to where I was - but if you want to help out our charity drive - you start at the beginning and you stick with us the whole way. You don't choose an arbitrary line in the sand and say "Hey - reach this and THEN I'll support you." If I'm willing to put myself out there - you ought to be willing to put your money where your mouth is.

But long gone are the comments from Deb and Kate and Byron and many of the original posters.

So the question remains.

Should I shut down this blog?

I really want your opinions. Not only if you find what I post to be helpful or useful - but also if you think it's in MY best interest to shut it down.

If I do - I will remain active in Team Voice - and remain active in health and fitness and running - and continue with all my goals. I will keep raising money - I'll go on podcasts and plug our charity - I'll keep losing weight. So don't worry about that - I'm not going anywhere.

I just won't chronicle my life here for you all.

If I don't shut it down - I may change it. I may not. I'm really not sure. I know I don't want to shut it down - but sometimes we can't see past what we want to what we need.

So I'm coming to you.

My friends. My commenters. The people who apparently care enough to register for an account and want to comment.

And if you're a lurker - GET AN ACCOUNT.

Today is the day I need to hear from ALL OF YOU.

Tell me you'd miss me. Tell me you want this blog to stay. Tell me WHY you read this blog.

Tell me you think my mom is right and I should shut down immediately.

Just tell me what you HONESTLY think.

And I'll HONESTLY listen. And maybe we can get past some of this stuff and back to the business of doing good.

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Club 8 - and a MAJOR ANNOUNCEMENT

2011-01-19T07:23:00.000-08:00

Today we're going to tie up a few loose ends from yesterday's post-a-palooza - and talk about the future of club 8 and Team Voice. And I have some EXCITING ANNOUNCEMENTS!

First - yesterday - wow - what an amazing response! I sparked a debate that generated 16 comments here, and two or three full blog posts elsewhere. Here's what it boils down to for me, after reading everything and thinking it over.

1) Disney should NOT give medals to non-finishers if they say they're not going to. Period.

2) It will NEVER be an issue for me again - as I will never not finish again. Period.

I think that second part is the more important one. And I think it's realistic. Sure - things happen - injuries, etc. But I'm not leaving room for them in my thinking. I'll deal with them if/when they happen - but until then - it's all thrusters forward.

Speaking of goals - it's been speculated that my goal of losing 100 lbs this year is too grand. And perhaps it's a grand gesture because I've fallen short of others. Well let's make it a more simple goal. I will commit to following WW all year. Here's the great part. If I do that, I should lose an average of 2 pounds per week. 50-ish weeks in a year. BINGO. 100lbs. Plus remember that we're also setting more manageable weekly goals here at home.

And you're right - all of you. Hug, mgreene, GVK, Amanda, Jeff, Rae. EVERYONE. I've made goals before. And sometimes succeed and sometimes not. All I can do is keep trying. And that's what I'm doing. :) And all you can do is sit back and watch the results. And trust me - there will be.

Now - CLUB 8. Yes my friends - the Club 8 challenge is back - and for those of you who maybe are lurkers or WANT to get in shape - or WANT to run a half marathon but need to lose some weight - this is FOR YOU. Club 8 is an official monthly challenge for Team Voicers who want to participate. The commitment is eight pounds per month. Two pounds per week.

There will be a link to the rules on the new Team Voice site.

Oh right - there's going to be a new Team Voice site! And here's the GREAT NEWS.

The Team Voice/Voice of Mousetunes official 2011 MAKE A WISH FUNDRAISER is officially ON. We have garnered our very own sponsorship page for Make-a-Wish to send seriously ill children - TO WALT DISNEY WORLD. We need to raise $6000 to do it. And so now I'm asking YOU for your help again.

Help me lose weight and help us grant wishes.

Commit right now.

"Jonathan, for every pound you lose from this point forward, I'll donate $1 per month!"

Or 2, or 4. Or even just 50 cents. But commit. Do it in the comments right here. Let them ALL hear you! JOIN IN.

And if you really want to push me - try this one.

"Jonathan, for every MILE you run from this point forward, I'll donate $1 per month."

Talk about motivation to make King of the Hill! (FYI - since I got back late in January, I'll start keeping track of mileage in February)

Look - if I complete my goals of 8 pounds per month - you're talking about a donation of 8 bucks a month. That's two less lattes for the MONTH. By the we get to the point where you have to donate, we'll have a page, a link, and a great status bar to show how much we've raised as a team. And all of Team Voice is in on this!

And in case you were wondering - we're going to take this WIDE - because I'm going to get on every podcast that'll have me to tell EVERYONE about this fundraiser - this team goal.

And we won't let ANYONE down!!!

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On Finishers Medals

2011-01-18T07:34:00.000-08:00

Okay - first of all - the 50 pound challenge. It's between Jeff W and I right now - but the rest of the team seems jazzed about it as a Biggest Loser type competition. Here's what I'll say right now. I welcome any and all into the challenge. :) And to spice it up even more - if I win (I'm the first to 50 pounds) I'll throw $50 into the charity ring. If I lose - I'll throw $100. Who's gonna take that action?

Now - medals.

Let's first go back to October. The W&D. If you remember - I sat dow at mile 11, and was given a choice by medical. Get up and go NOW or hop in the van. I wore that medal until I got back to the Poly that night - and took it off - and have never worn it again. Why not? Because I didn't earn it. I was given a choice - and chose to stop.

Now - January. I never chose to stop. I simply slowed down to a point where I was below pace by about 2 minutes. If I'd had two more minutes under my belt, I'd have passed that bus, and finished. To me this is a crucial difference.

Now - I agree with BOTH Jeff and Amanada. Disney NEEDS to be consistent. Either you get your medal if you finish ONLY - or you get your medal no matter what - as long as you try. None of this wishy washy stuff. Especially when we know Byron didn't get one in 2009.

But that being said - I disagree with Jeff about one thing - this medal has not in any way given me permission to be complacent. Here's what I know. Every time I wore it (which was sparingly) someone asked me what my time was. And I had to explain. And I was ashamed and embarrassed. And every time I told the story it made me want a finishing time THAT MUCH MORE.

Sure - there's nothing to shake a stick at going 10 miles. Sure between the monorail - the starting corral and the finish line might be another 3.1. And I can justify it any way I want. But I didn't finish. And I know that. The medal doesn't change that at all. And the looks from my teammates when they saw the medal, knowing I didn't finish - that's all the motivation I need.`

If anything - the medal is a reminder that I gave it all I had - but that I CAN DO BETTER. Because without a finishing time - there's no finishers certificate to frame with it - so it never gets displayed. No discussions of PRs or time improvement. Nothing. It means I tried. But the 2009 medal means way more.

I proudly wore it - because I know that I gave the 2011 WDW Half Marathon every ounce of get up and go I had. Unlike October - where I wonder what would have happened if I'd gotten up and kept walking.

But it also serves as a reminder that I can, have, and WILL do better in the future.

So where does this leave me?

With the following statement:

In future races - if I give it everything I have - and for whatever reason (injury, etc) do not finish - I will accept a medal. If there is any doubt in my mind - I will refuse it.

As for Disney - my only request is consistency. Tell us what you're going to do, and do it. I mean - if someone is injured trying their hardest - did they work less hard than someone who finished?

And yeah - I probably fall into the camp that says that if you don't finish - you don't get a medal. I think it SHOULD be something to be cherished and really worked for.

But I ain't giving mine back. :)

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355 - 2011 Planning - 2012 Dreaming

2011-01-17T08:34:00.000-08:00

Okay - so - here we are.

Today's post topic is: what does 2011 and 2012 hold for "the Voice" and my family?

First thing's first. Club 8 WILL CONTINUE. And we're restarting the clock with today's number. 355. Jeff W and I are racing to 50 pounds lost, starting today.

So what's this year about?

WEIGHT LOSS. Plain and simple. Weight loss and training.

In 2011, I WILL LOSE ONE HUNDRED POUNDS.

I logged my weight on WW today - and am tracking my points already. And - speaking of competitions - Amber and I have one going on at home. We ordered a case of Animation Series I Vinylmation. And when it arrives it will stay UNOPENED.

Each week we are setting personal goals from Monday through Sunday. If we accomplish them - the on Sunday we each get to open ONE Vinylmation. If not - they sit there taunting us.

This week's goals for me:

1) Weigh-in on Monday. Check.

2) Track my WW points each day (must have a minimum of 5/7 to pass)

3) Workout 30 minutes 4 times this week (must have a minimum of 3/4 to pass)

So what am I training for? What's the outcome of all this, other than health?

Races. Disney races in 2012. Four of them.

Now now now - don't panic - I'm not ignoring my teammates suggestions. I WILL do other races in 2011. But they are merely stepping stones.

In 2012 I will run ALL FOUR Disney Half Marathons. Three in WDW and one in Disneyland. I do reserve the right to add Disney 5ks and/or UPGRADE my races. But I will at LEAST do four Disney Half Marathons.

I will also achieve a sub 3:00 half marathon (thanks Justin for the idea! LOVE IT!) - preferably in January 2012 - and then improving.

How do I accomplish my health and running goals?

Simple - training and weight loss. Weight loss - we're going to really really pound WW hard. Training - first we just get back into the swing of things - and then I'll be using Jeff Galloway's training program to run/walk training for a half marathon.

Also on the horizon for 2011 - the Dichter family is moving to a new home. Likely in March or April. And we will be building a workout room into this new home. It won't be far from our current home - just larger. :) And closer to the office and Elizabeth's Day Care.

So - LOTS of goals (don't worry - I AM including charity fundraising - but that'll be addressed on Wednesdays post) - but lots of support and wonderful teamitude!!

So how's that?

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Coming Attractions

2011-01-16T15:34:00.001-08:00

Hello friends!

I'm back from Walt Disney World and the 1/2 Marathon Weekend - and boy is there a LOT to talk about. But rather than have a "marathon" like post (hehehe) - I wanted to use today to give you a roadmap of what to expect over the next week.

Monday: Official Weigh-in and a detailed accounting of what 2011 holds for me and my family (think health goals, weight loss, and training training training)

Tuesday: On Finisher's Medals - there's been a lot of talk about this one, and I feel I should chime in. So if you can wait until Tuesday for it - you'll hear my two cents.

Wednesday: Team Voiceitude - what's next for me in terms of Team Voice and Club 8

Thursday: Trip Recap - not a full report - but more of a highlights version

Friday: Weekly wrap-up - we'll cover everything we haven't covered - and keep the dialogue going.

I see a year coming of positive changes - team unity - and charitable contributions!

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1 Day - Allergies and Excitement

2011-01-04T06:40:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow morning we take off to head to WDW. Tomorrow night I'll sleep in my bed at BLT for the first time. How nice. :) I'm VERY excited.

I can't wait to see Amanda and Jeff and Justin and Rae and EVERYONE! I can't wait to see my friends Mark and Elaine (who, it seems, I have to travel to Florida to see, even though they live around the corner! LOL). My uncle Michael, his husband Richard, and of course MICKEY!

I can't wait for this race!

But here's the fun part - just as I was getting OVER being sick - and tooth problems - my allergies hit like a ton of bricks. I haven't been able to breathe out of both sides of my head for days, and I've been running a fever off and on for three days (low grade though).

This is not an excuse to not give it my best! But it is a fact. As is the fact that I've been sick the last 2-3 weeks, and haven't done too much to finalize race prep.

That being said - I'm still going to give it 140% and surprise myself with what I'm capable of.

And take Claritin. LOL

CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL!!!

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3 Days - Getting Excited

2011-01-02T10:39:00.000-08:00

REALLY getting excited now.

Disney Floral has been ordered.

DVC is ready.

We have a 1BR MK View for 10 nights coming our way.

DME is ready.

We're packing.

HOLY CATS. I can't wait for Main Street.

And speaking of which - Amber made a comment that made me feel wonderful.

"You know - knowing how crazy weird and at times awful 2010 was - if you give it your all - I won't be disappointed if I don't see you at the finish line - I want to see that smile on Main Street for sure, though."

And it reminded me of how much DIFFERENT of a race the half is from the W&D. I want to see that finish line - so I'll saddle up to the start - and give it 140% of myself. :)

Speaking of which - go listen to Nando over on snowytundra. :) GO JEFF!

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5 Days - The Cusp of the New Year

2010-12-31T07:03:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day of 2010.

What a year it has been. It started with me seeking help for depression, followed by my father's passing, and a host of other ups and downs.

And now it's nearly behind us.

I for one, am happy. Not to see 2010 go - but to see 2011 shining before me.

A year where I can make positive changes in my life and the lives of others.

A year where Elizabeth will grow by leaps and bounds.

A year of unbridled potential.

And speaking of potential - I hit the gym this morning for the first time since the illness. A little tight as I did an elliptical workout - but stretching and working the kinks out. A few more of those, and I ought to be as ready as I'm going to be come Wednesday.

WOAH. We're under a week from WDW. :)

NOW I'M EXCITED.

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8 Days - Laughter Hurts

2010-12-28T07:44:00.000-08:00

So - I have to share this story.

First of all - recall that I've been sick - and that the violent throwing up I've done has really done a number on my rib cage. It hurts to laugh. It hurts to breath deeply. I'm going to the gym tomorrow to start SLOWLY trying to stretch it out so I can handle race day.

Now - flash to last night. While we've been sick, Amber and I haven't been sleeping well - nor really talking a lot. And yesterday we kinda felt like ourselves again.

And rolled into bed around 10:30 - but couldn't sleep.

So we played games on our iPads together while Elizabeth slept between us.

Around midnight, Amber commented that Elizabeth sounded like Darth Vader.

To which I said: "Search your feelings, mommy!"

And Amber paused a moment for dramatic effect, and replied.

"I find your lack of sleep disturbing."

HOLY CATS. We laughed for about 15 minutes solid - couldn't stop. One of those cathartic laughs. PAINFULLY cathartic.

Yeah - you know the kind? The ones that WAKE THE BABY?

Yeah. Those. LOL

So we were up until around 3ish.

But TOTALLY worth it.

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9 Days - Virus - Weight Loss

2010-12-27T00:19:00.001-08:00

I hope our entire team had a wonderful Christmas Holiday - and is looking forward with anticipation to the New Year!

We had an interesting one.

You see - on Thursday the 23rd, at about 7am, Elizabeth began vomiting. A lot. This was her first real bout of illness, so we rushed her to the doctors at 8am.

She had a stomach virus. Advice? Just keep her hydrated, and let it run its course. Likely 24-48 hours.

We stayed home Thursday and Friday.

Christmas Eve we invited my mother over for dinner. I cooked. As I cooked, Amber and I noticed a slight discomfort in our bodies. We ended dinner early as Amber rushed to the bathroom, clearly stricken with what Elizabeth had.

I succumbed about 4 hours later.

Between Christmas Eve and today, we've been home - recovering. Aching. Dealing with fevers. And aches. And chills. And pains.

But now - we all appear to be healthier...likely up to 100% by the end of the week.

Except my mom.

Yeah - she got it today.

Don't worry though - better now than on the way to WDW for the race!

I'm hoping to get into the gym Tuesday or Wednesday to loosen up a bit. All that being sick stuff is murder on your ribs and diaphragm. It hurts to laugh right now.

But hey - I managed to actually LOSE weight over the Christmas Holiday. :) I'm down 2 pounds this week - but I'm not posting it as an "official" weight - because, hey - being sick - barely eating - and having things go right through you seems like it doesn't count. LOL

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12 Days - Merry Christmas

2010-12-24T12:34:00.000-08:00

To those of you who celebrate Christmas - may tomorrow be your merriest and happiest one yet.

This is just a quick hello.

We have a sick baby for Christmas. She has a stomach virus - and has been throwing up for a day now. She seems to be on the mend, so maybe happy and healthy for Santa Claus's presents tomorrow...

But it's been a long few days. And tough. It's hard watching my baby girl have to be so brave. But she's doing great.

She's been a good girl.

She deserves a Merry Christmas.

And so do you.

From the bottom of our hearts - we wish you all one. And the healthiest and happiest new year possible.

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14 Days - A Christmas Story

2010-12-22T06:24:00.000-08:00

How cool is it that Amber almost bought me a T-Shirt that says "It's a major award!" on it?

See - Amber can't STAND this movie. And yet I love it. It's just so...classic. And hilarious. And yet, she tolerates it once or twice during the season.

Let's face it - "You'll shoot your eye out" is one of the monikers of our time.

In any event - let's follow up on my last post.

Elizabeth is no longer febrile.

I've seen a dentist, and was told (thankfully) that it was my wisdom teeth, but that I could keep them. Something had lodged in the gum and worked UNDER the tooth. They numbed me up and dug in there - HARD - and got it out. Advil for three days (this is day two) and I should be good as new. The pain I still feel brings some nausea, but it's lessening and tomorrow should be right as rain.

Did you know that you can't buy the soundtrack from White Christmas?

That really bothers me.

Hey guys - guess what?

TWO WEEKS TO GO UNTIL WDW.

Can't wait!! We start our pre-trip checklist tonight.

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