And at the appropriate time in the movie - I broke down. Completely. Sobbed. My heart just....hurt. Ached. But when it passed - I felt a little better.
And then I realized that seeing this counselor is just what I think I really needed. I think I've been stalled because of some blocks inside. And it's time to start knocking them down.
I saw my dietician today. We reviewed my food logging and noted that I eat out. A lot. I was averaging between 3000-3500 calories a day. We're cutting that to no more than 2500 a day. And she's given me a food plan - including a detailed menu. I weigh in again when I see her in 4 weeks. And there WILL be progress by then. She's said "It's time for us to get aggressive and kick some butt."
I can't even begin to say how much I agree. And how suddenly - excited I am.
And Byron - if you're still with me - my friend - feel no shame in being where you are. But as a wise old baboon once told me - you can either run from it....or....learn from it.
And "learn from it" sounds like the better choice. So I'm with you. All of you.
If you're with me.