
As you know, if you've been keeping up, I'm currently on anti-depressants and seeing a counselor to deal with what we're classifying as "a major depressive incident." Now my counselor says I'm one of the most upbeat depressed guys she knows, but there you have it.
I have good days and bad. And when I have bad days, I get really down on myself.
But the bad days are LESS bad now then they were in December, for instance.
And getting better.
Regardless, here's what this week has brought me.
Two fun side-effects of my medication.
1. Diarrhea. I know. Pleasant isn't it? But this has stopped for now. Just made for a fun beginning of the week.
2. Insomnia. This one is still sticking around, although mellowing a BIT. I get tired. Lay down to sleep around 10:30. And my eyes just stay open. Usually until around 1:30 or 2am. Last night closer to midnight. And I'm hoping that as my body normalizes the medicine levels, I'll get back to normal sleep...because once I DO get to sleep, I find it nearly impossible to wake up early enough to go to the gym (which is why there's no mileage yet this week) And then what happens? I feel bad all day because I didn't exercise.
And when I feel bad what do I do? Beat myself up, and then have lunch at Wendy's.
But here's the bright shiny spot.
When I went to Wendy's yesterday - I counted the calories of what I ate, and adjusted the rest of the day accordingly. I didn't give up. I felt bad, sure, but didn't give up.
And amazingly - the weight keeps coming off. Because I'm working at it.
I'm honestly working through this. I get up every day - take my med - and focus on trying to have the best day possible - understanding that sometimes....well sometimes I just won't.
And that's okay. Because I'm better than I was.
And I'm not as good as I will be.
And for now - that works for me.
More mileage to come this weekend!!!!
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