I noticed something interesting last night - interesting - and a little bit sad.I'm having a hard time getting fully into the Christmas (or Holiday - since I celebrate Hannukah too) spirit.
I'll get a whiff of it - and then it's gone.
And I think a good portion of that has to do with missing my father. He LOVED the holidays so much. And that's where I got my love of them.
But I asked Amber to try to help me recapture it. Help me sing songs. Watch movies. Tell Christmas stories.
You see - what I know about the spirit is that it lives deep within all of us this time of year, and if we can just bring it out - we can make our worlds brighter, and make that of our fellow man brighter. So I just need to focus on it harder. :)
And even though with my recent struggles, I feel like a Team Voice member on the Island of Misfit toys - I know that Santa Claus and his sleigh will somehow help me find my way to where I belong. The starting line - then Main Street - then the Finish line.
And we'll all do it together.
MAIN STREET AWAITS!
I totally understand how you are feeling, I am feeling the same way about Christmas this year. I have been so busy that I haven't really slowed down to enjoy the season. Plus, we should be in WDW right now but we had to cancel and that was really hard. I feel like we will never get back to our happy place.
ReplyDeleteKeep up the training!!! You are doing great and you are going to have so much fun in WDW!!!!
Dana
Can I suggest something?
ReplyDeleteFind the Guideposts stories of faith christmas anthology.
It's a great injection of what the holidays are all about! Honor your father's memory by instilling the love of the holidays in his granddaughter. ;)
Well, you posted a picture of Rudolph...and that is definitely the right idea. I'm a bit older than you, but when I was growing up that cartoon was just about always the first Christmas special of the season - and truly kicked off the season for me. Even now I always make a point of watching it at about this time of the year and it still kicks off the season for me.
ReplyDeleteMusic is another great way to recapture the spirit of times gone by, especially if you have and play albums that you may have grown up with. The classics of my time were Ray Conniff's "Christmas With Conniff" and the Harry Simeone Choral's "The Little Drummer Boy." If either of those, or some other special album, was a personal favorite - be sure to give them a listen!
I feel it to, I don't even have my tree or decorations up yet and I always have them up. I just feel busy.
ReplyDeleteThough there are moments, like A meeting Santa for the first time yesterday (you can look at my facebook profile to see the photo). I actually cried it was just such a great moment.
We still don't have any snow so maybe that is why I am not in the spirit yet. I still have 22 days to get there and Hannukah is early this year, my dd is half jewish and off tomorrow to celebrate it.
Maybe a movie night with Christmas movies will help. But never fear it will come, because it is something inside of you and as the day comes closer it will come out.
Happy Hannukah
Trust me you are not alone. My father passed away on Christmas Eve....The holidays haven't been the same since.
ReplyDeleteTo top it off - I have to travel for work which means no Christmas decorations of my dogs will eat them while I'm gone.
Usually I totally decorate my cube at work, but we're so busy this year that I don't even have time to do that.
So, like you I am struggling with this. I just try to remember the joy of Christmas's past and how much my parents loved the holidays and it brings a smile to my face.
It's okay to have the feelings your feeling, but remember you have a very special little one that needs Daddy to have some Christmas spirit so that you can make new family memories and start traditions with her!