Maybe it's allergy season coming to kick my butt sooner.Maybe I'm getting a cold.
Maybe my body is finally starting to process stress and sadness.
Regardless, just as I'm building steam to get my head on straight and get on a treadmill and really pound some miles out - I get sick.
Ugh.
But I'll have some soup tonight - and try again tomorrow.
I'm NOT going to let myself, my family, my friends, or my father down.
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You have been so stressed and made so many changes in the past year, you are bound to get a doozy of a cold ( I took it in my human studies - even good things cause it), so you are not letting any of us down.
ReplyDeleteKeep up the positive energy, and you will make it through this!!!! Just to give you some extra energy I am sending you postive thoughts, positive energy and a big heap of pixie dust.
:)
Just think BAY LAKE TOWER.
Sometimes when you really start to kick up your work outs, it's normal for your immunity to duck down a little. Add that to the stress, and you may have a little sniffle.
ReplyDeleteWhether it's a cold OR allergies, just keep on truckin'! You'll kick both of them faster if you stay on the right track. ;)
Jonathan - Please be careful with yourself. While I admire that you're doing a lot in the memory of your Dad, be healthy about it. You can't move on if you don't allow him to go and be in peace. Letting him go doesn't mean forgetting or not loving - it simply means that you will both come to the understanding that he was needed somewhere else and for him to do what he has to do you have to let him. Likewise, he will be letting you get on and learn to live a life without him being physically present.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you'r working through a lot of this with your therapist, but I just thought I'd mention it. I went through a few very difficult months until I realized that I wasn't letting my love ones be in peace and that I held guilt for not doing enough while they were with me. Once I started to make peace with what had happened, what I did right, etc...I was able to let them go on to whatever they were being asked to do now and I was able to start healing.
Probably sounds very cliche and melodramatic to you at this point, but at some point you'll probably see this happening for you and it will be different.
Good luck Jonathan - you can achieve all your goals!
Rest and get better. Listen to your body! You'll be back up and working out quicker if you take enough time to get well. Elizabeth's a cutie!
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