Let's get the lousy part out of the way right up front. I've put back on 3.5 pounds in 2 weeks.There. It's said.
Now - yesterday Amber brought something to my attention that is unacceptable.
And apparently I didn't realize it.
She told me that this thing I'm going through with my parents is sapping my will. It's sucking my energy dry. She says I'm not as optimistic as I have been. I don't laugh as much. I just kind of blah. If not down right sulk. And it's causing me to abandon my own goals and health. I'm not focusing on what's happy in my life - I'm focusing on trying to deal with my father's illness and my mother's severe anxiety.
And it stops. Now.
I didn't realize how far I'd fallen. How deeply into this I'd gotten.
And I'm sorry to all of you - my friends and supporters. I haven't been very motivational lately. But that stops now too.
I'm going to fight my way back to you all! Back to Amber, the Bean, and most of all - back to ME.
I started that fight this morning. I did the first workout of an EA Active 30 day challenge. And man - it was tough - AND fun. Their schedule calls for two rest days a week. What I'm going to do, however, is augment their schedule with my own running schedule. Tomorrow I'm doing a lake serene loop. That's my new SHORT run. No more using it as a long run. I have a race in 30-ish days. I have to be ready.
And then Disneyland.
I'm going to EARN that trip. I'm going to sweat, fight, and work HARD.
And I'm going to SMILE. LAUGH. LOVE.
I'm sorry I've been away so long.
I won't let you down again.
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You have nothing to apologize for!! Your family and friends will support you no matter what and if they don’t, they aren’t your friends. Amber is right though, you do need to take care of yourself so you can take care of your family. Sounds like you have a plan just don’t be too hard on yourself if you slide once in a while. It happens to all of us.
You can do this!!
Dana
Welcome back! It's the Jonathan that fights on that keeps everyone tuned in.
WIth the RnR Half 30-ish days away, you've got about 23 days of hard core training ahead of you. Push as hard as you can those 23 days. I'm glad the lake serene loop is now your new short run. Hit it hard. Focus on these next 20 days or so. Taper down your mileage that last week.
You are in the last month of RnR training, make every day count. Make every workout count.
You can do it!!! That is the fighting spirit - you will get through this and with the support around you from Amber and Team Voice, you will be back on track in no time.
And as previously said, don't overdo it and keep moving forward!
You should use the stress to fuel your workouts, to refresh yourself, to be the unstress you.
What has happen to your parents is well life. Part of the aging process. And you handle it or you don't.
Getting old is no fun, but we can make it fun while we can.
Learn from this. Set limits to how much you are going to deal with, and then you will have to say stop. I love you, but stop.Like during a part of the day, set a time limit and say no calls from this time to this time,this is ME time.Or time for you and Amber. Take control, and do not let it control you. That is what you are doing.
It is really hard when it is our very own, but you can not change what has happen only move forward. You are doing what you can to help, BUT you should not take away from YOURSELF. This is a life lesson thrown at you, now regain control, and find your balance, and grow from it.
And the 3 pound gain is unacceptable. :( You have worked so hard, and you look great, feel great, So why are you taking it out on yourself?? Are you worth it to keep it off?? I am only saying this out of friendship, and I have been there. I have walked in your shoes. It is not an easy thing to do, but once the dust settles, you will still be YOU!!
I promise!!! {patting you on the back} Tomorrow is a new day, with the same stress, but are you going to be in control??Set limits?? Take a time out for you?? Well??
Sleep well,my friend. {hug and waving} :)
BTW I loved Burt and Ernie, and Rubber ducky!!!
Rubber ducky - you're the one! Oh it's been so long since I've sang that song.
You know what - you're worth more than you're giving yourself credit for. Amber, the Bean, your parents - they all need you to be the best you possible. You can handle this.
Think back to that half marathon. You did it. Did you think you could do it a few years ago? Did you even think about doing it a few years ago? Well, you need to treat this situation the same way...It seems impossible, but nothing's impossible for a Team Voice Member and especially not you.
Suck it up and get on track. Put down the doughnuts, soda and any other garbage you're consuming and put the right fuel in your body. I know you know how to do that.
Now, take a few minutes to meditate, do some deep breathing and think about the Bean! You've got so much to look forward to!
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