1. Dad. He's back in the hospital. He was home less than 24 hours before he had trouble breathing, my mom noticed swelling in his legs, and yes, guess what? He's back in congestive heart failure. So he was re-admitted - on lasix - and is slowly trying to get rid of his fluid. I can't tell you how stressful this all is - especially since at times my mother can be so...demanding of attention and help. Couple that with worries about my dad, and the fact that Amber and I are exhausted from OUR trips out there and just not really looking forward to going back in a week and a half for thanksgiving (don't get me wrong - we love my family - but this has taken a toll on us) - and you can understand why we lead into #2....
2. Food. I've been stress eating. No doubt about it. And because of how tired I am emotionally, physically, and otherwise, my defenses are down.
3. Exercise. Inconsistent at best.
4. Attitude. Poor. I've been snippy with friends and coworkers. I'm just plain ol' GRUMPY. When usually I'm more Dopey.
But as I lay awake in bed this morning thinking of how far I've come, and how far back I COULD slide if I let myself, and feeling my stomach cramping slightly, I made a conscious decision to stop.
I've always been big on new beginnings - and so I'm giving myself one.
Tomorrow begins a new week - and only 7 weeks from the trip and the race. And it's time to CRUNCH down and fight hard. Amber and I meal planned for the remainder of this month (including our trip for Thanksgiving) to ensure quality, healthy meals - and already went grocery shopping. No more eating out.
I've moved Runny Bunny to near my bed so I CAN SEE him no matter what - instead of having him sitting in my office where he is inspirational only if I choose to look at him.
So here's the plan:
Monday - we start with 3 miles around Lake Serene and then 20 minutes on wii fit.
Tuesday - 30 minutes of weights at the gym - and 20 minutes on wii fit.
Wednesday - 20 minutes of wii fit.
Thursday - 3 miles around Safeway (different loop) and then 20 minutes on wii fit.
Friday - 30 minutes of weights at the gym - and 20 minutes on wii fit.
Saturday - 8.6 miles and 20 minutes of wii fit.
Sunday - 20 minutes of wii fit.
I'm not at all concerned about pace while I do these - my base pace is under 16 minutes (barely - but under) - and so I'm just concerned about getting BACK into the habit of working out daily. Moving my body more - and getting my legs used to it again.
I haven't slid far, folks, but I'm jamming on the brakes and pushing forward.
What I need from you guys is support. I need you to believe I can do this. I need you to believe that I'm not just some fat guy that lost a bunch of weight to start putting it back on and go back to the couch. I need you to believe that miracles are possible and that a guy like me who was once over 370 pounds (and still under 300, thank you) CAN complete a half-marathon. Because if I can do that - then I can do anything - and will. I've already started scoping out local races for after...because if I can cross that line at EPCOT and finish - I'm never turning back.
Believe in me. I believe in you.
MAIN STREET AWAITS!