Okay - we'll finish out the Disneyland trip report tomorrow.I almost didn't post today. Almost.
It's been a bumpy week back from vacation, as it usually is, and I'm embarassed, frankly. I'm embarassed that my workouts haven't been top notch, and my eating has been bottom notch. I've gained another 2 pounds. And I'm really beating myself up.
But...I've begun turning things around. Yesterday was better than the day before, and today will be better still.
I've also mapped out my 6 miles for tomorrow mornings training jog.
But I'm not posting to tell you of my foibles. I'm posting to tell you I'm still standing. I'm still pushing. I'm still working. And I'm still moving forward. I refuse to give up. There's too much at stake. And too many people (including one unexpected person who I'm proud to support in his future endeavors) counting on me!
This team leader will not give in. Things will get better slowly - as they always do.
And maybe this is a good moment to remember that even Casey Jr. had a tough time getting up that hill. But he thought he could. And he made it.
And so will I.
And so will you.
And so will we.
MAIN STREET AWAITS!
I hope encouragement from a non-team member is okay.
ReplyDeleteI was thinking of you (and Rae) on my bike ride to work this morning. I was also thinking about the mental challenges that regularly arise for me before, during, after working out.
Slowly, ever so slowly, I'm finding that quiet place inside, down beyond all the criticism and clamoring and panic and shame and doubt and fear. That quiet is elusive, but the more I work, the more accessible it is.
I thought of Rae's suggestion a while back about meditation.
Now maybe you're not a meditation kind of guy. No problem. But I think the wisdom of her suggestion is in trying to help you connect to that quiet place that's beyond all the chatter.
Even the "go get 'em, I can do this" chatter. 'Cause even that isn't always helpful when you're huffing along that last mile.
The beauty of getting quiet is that your mind gets out of the way and lets your body do its thing.
I'm not saying "shut up." I hope it doesn't sound that way.
Hard to put into words. It's a visceral experience. But I'm sure you've had it.
It's hard, isn't it? You use words in your profession -- to convince, persuade, win someone's freedom. Hard to imagine that words won't always do the trick when you're up against so many physical challenges, commitments, and goals.
Keep hanging in there. Let go of the embarrassment. You're still standing. Still here. Still breathing. Tomorrow, as Scarlett so wisely observed, is another day.
Good luck!
See you over came that hurdle of not posting. You did well. It is VERY hard to get back into your routine after having such a great time in the Land.
ReplyDeleteI am here to help.
Stand aside and look back at ALL the hurdles you have overcome. Learn from them and keep moving forward. It seems you have been and I am so proud to read everyday,for the last 2 years and watching you turn into this awesome person.:)
Keep running, so you CAN be ready for the race. That will be the Real test.
Main Street Awaits.